David's Desk #197

David's Desk is my opportunity to share thoughts and tools for the spiritual journey. These letters are my personal insights and opinions and do not necessarily reflect the sentiments or thoughts of any other person in Lorian or of Lorian as a whole. If you wish to share this letter with others, please feel free to do so; however, the material is ©2023 by David Spangler.

A Balrog Moment

“I am a servant of the Secret Fire, wielder of the flame of Anor. You cannot pass.” Thus spoke Gandalf the Grey standing on Durin’s Bridge in the abandoned Dwarven city of Khazad-dûm deep in the mines of Moria. The target of his denial was a Balrog, a fire demon, who, in Tolkien’s timeless Lord of the Rings, was attempting to catch and destroy the Fellowship of the Ring who were escaping over the bridge. Only Gandalf stood in the Balrog’s way, but, in Tolkien’s cosmology, Gandalf, though in human form, was actually an angel of Light. The “Secret Fire” was the Sacred itself, and the “flame of Anor” was literally the plasmic fire of the sun, the light that gave energy and life to all the earth. The Balrog, a fallen angel itself, had met its match.

From time to time, I ask my subtle colleagues, “Given the world situation now, what can we do that would be helpful?” I always get essentially the same reply: “It’s important for you to be and to hold the Light. Be a radiant presence of Light in your life in all that you do and in all relationships. Be a Sun!”

Interestingly, this past month, I had a letter from a dear friend, Susan Stanton Rotman, who is a wonderful sensitive with her own inner contacts. She said, 

“I had received a message from one of my inner contacts recently. It said, ‘Be Light. That is the most important thing.’ I asked what that means, how to be light, and got this response: ‘Joy. Hope. Love. Laughter. Optimism. Patience. While you do whatever you do, be the Sun. Light actually is transmuting, transforming, and restructuring human circuitry. It is not nothing! Holding its resonance is supporting the reworking of the human mind/body. It is a long game. But it is real. Understand you are an electrical transformer.’”

It’s not surprising anymore to me that often when I’ve received a message from one of my invisible subtle colleagues, I’ll get some form of confirmation of that message from an independent outside source, as happened here. Even some of the words were the same in what I received and in what Susan received: “Be the Sun!”

The consistent message I’ve had from the spiritual realms is that each of us can be a generative source of Light in the world. We are each essentially beings of Light. The challenge, of course, is making this real in practical ways in our daily lives and in the life of the world.

In the world of the Lord of the Rings, Gandalf is seen as an old man, a wizard. No one save a few of the elves know that he is an angel in human form. His angelic nature is hidden, and his power veiled so that he can interact with men, hobbits, and elves as part of their world. It is only when confronted with a Balrog that he shows his true self, for then it is needed if the Fellowship is to survive and save their world.

I find in this story a parable for who we are. We, too, are beings of Light whose sacred nature is cloaked and hidden as we live our lives in the physical world. But we are now confronting a Balrog moment in our world. The planetary and social consequences of our greed, our fears, our hatred, our violence, our selfishness, and our divisiveness are rising like Tolkien’s demon to confront us. If we and our world are to survive, on the bridge of this moment in our human history, we must stand in our Light and let the better angels of our nature say with courage, “We are servants of the Secret Fire, Wielders of the flame of Anor! You shall not pass to shape our future!”

An Experiment

One of the advantages of David’s Desk being digital is that I can do things I couldn’t if it were printed. My Lorian colleague and friend, James Tousignant, and I do podcasts together. He thought it might be interesting to you, my Reader, if he and I were to have a discussion around the theme of that month’s essay and then add the audio at the end. That way, you could both read my thoughts for that month and also listen to me talk about them with James. So, without further ado, here is this month’s conversation. I hope you enjoy it and the added dimension it brings to David’s Desk.

Reflections on Equinox as a Time of Balance

In considering the energies of the Equinox and the environmental conditions active in our world, the Festival team wanted to explore how resources inherent in the world and in our own loving intention can offer a blessing in ways that can help strengthen and support the life of Gaia.

Through our interest in making our festival celebrations relevant to these times, we co-created a practice for this Equinox season from our conversations together. We share both conversation and practice here in the hope that you will join us in the Commons Equinox Festival online on the 24th of  September at 1pm PT or that you will try the practice yourself at home during this Equinox season and beyond. We welcome your blessing partnership!

–Freya, Linda, Ara, and Lucinda.

Our Conversation begins with Linda and Freya

Linda: On this Equinox–as Australia seems to be moving again into another El Nino period–it is already dry and unseasonably warm here and I see the United States and Canada fighting fires and hurricanes storms. I am looking to find Balance within myself so that I can bring the blessing of Presence to our precious world.

Australia, where I live, is the driest inhabited continent in the world. 70 percent is either arid or semi-arid. Drought, bush fires, and floods have been a constant occurrence on this ancient land. Learning to live in balance with these two extremes is essential for the survival of its people, its creatures, and its plant life.

I have always tried to conserve our precious water, especially after experiencing a long drought in 2009 when we had to live with severe water restrictions. I became so conscious of the fragility of this element, how the bush and my own garden were so parched, the air hot and dry, the fire element so dominant. Then, how quickly it all changed when it began to rain, and we were suddenly in flood conditions.

Freya: I am touched by the connection to land and water you speak about here, Linda. I can remember the water restrictions put in place in the past in California, where I was living at the time. Please say more about your experiences

Linda: These cycles reflect what I experience within me. The fire/solar element represents what I am passionate about–what drives me–and the water/lunar element brings perspective to my emotions and helps me to find equilibrium and inner calm. When I look at how I balance these elements of fire and water within me, I touch a sacred relationship in life that brings me to reflect on the relationship the First Nation’s people of Australia have always had with water. I have traveled many times to central Australia to attend Aboriginal desert ceremonies. They were gatherings to celebrate and to honor Aboriginal women and their connection to their sacred lands and rituals.

We would sit in the desert and watch and participate in their dances and ceremonies. Sometimes, they would take us to their own lands, further inland in the middle of the desert, to places that were very remote and pulsating with energy. They would take us to their water holes–underwater springs. The knowledge of the locations of the springs has been passed down from mothers to daughters. Their ancestors passed this knowledge through the Dreamtime and by the ancient routes called the Songlines.

I remember one water hole where the setting was so beautiful, and the colors of desert, sky, and water so complementary.  I felt at one with the landscape–a sense of peace, joy, and balance, almost a remembrance of being there before. I often return to this magical place in meditation to connect and feel at one with my landscape.

Freya: Could you say more about Dreamtime and Songlines?

Linda: For thousands of years, Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander peoples have navigated their way across the lands and seas of Australia using paths called Songlines or Dreaming tracks. A Songline is based around the creator beings and their formation of the land and waters during the Dreamtime (creation of the earth). It explains the landmarks, rock formations, watering holes, rivers, sky and sea. Clan groups could demonstrate their knowledge of place in the songs and dances passed down from generation to generation, in turn creating dreaming tracks for people to travel vast distances, highlighting their deep connection to land and sea. The Songlines are maintained through ceremony and record important knowledge encoded as memory texts–such as places to find water, food, and shelter.

Let me share one of the many Dreamtime Aboriginal Creation stories that relate to water, the story of Tiddalik.

Tiddalik, the largest frog ever known, awoke one morning with a huge thirst. He started to drink and drink until there was no fresh water left in the world. Soon, creatures everywhere were dying and trees were wilting because of lack of moisture.

All the animals pondered about their terrible plight until a wise old wombat suggested that if Tiddalik could be made to laugh, then maybe all the water would flow out of his mouth. This was a good idea, and the animals agreed.

The animals gathered by Tiddalik’s resting place and tried for a long time to make him laugh, but it was in vain. The kookaburra told his funniest story. The kangaroo jousted over the emu and the lizard waddled up and down on two legs, making his stomach stick out. But Tiddalik was not amused.

Then, when the animals were in despair, Nabunum the eel who was driven from his favorite creek by the trough drought slid up to the unresponsive frog and began to dance. As the dance got faster, Nabunum wriggled and twisted himself into all sorts of knots and shapes–to the amusement of Tiddalik. Tiddalik’s eyes lit up and he burst out laughing. As he laughed, the water gushed out from his mouth and flowed to replenish the lakes, swamps, and rivers again.

Freya: What a delightful story! It makes me laugh too! What stands out for me in this story, which relates to current times, is that it shows a way to step back from the pressure of solving the many issues we are experiencing in our lives right now. We can draw upon the freeing and connecting energy of laughter and create a new frame to meet polarizing forces around us. It seems so obvious, but maybe not so easy.

In this story, the animals couldn't force or logic Tiddalik into releasing the water, but Nabunum was willing to step out of his norms, let go of control, and twist into odd shapes. The resulting laughter because of this “foolishness” opened up and released the nourishing water that was so needed. What a creative, not-to-be-expected ending! It is a gift to step out of control, let go, and bring a lighter spirit of being to an issue.

It is also a spherical resolution because laughter holds the possibility to touch and transform all involved. Using humor brings in perspective and lightness of spirit. It is not control but joy, laughter, and delight that opens us up to the energies of balance–freedom in oneself to move in many different directions and the possibility of new relationships in the world.

The Conversation develops as Ara and Lucinda join in with thoughts about the Gifts of Laughter and Water

Ara: Laughter involves breath and breath brings you into the present moment. You have to breathe to laugh. You can’t keep fighting with someone when you laugh together.

Perhaps one way out of this environmental mess is to come into the present moment with the spirit of shared laughter. When we are present, we can make a difference.

Lucinda: Water can be a natural equalizing force and an agent of balance, so I am glad that we are exploring the element of water at this Equinox time. The flow of water is a connecting force as well, bringing seemingly separate things together so easily. Our human bodies are made up of roughly 60% water or more, and when we are dehydrated, we need the healing agent of water to bring us back into balance. I love linking the healing force of laughter with water, as Linda’s story offers us. The practice we came up with is a wonderful way to weave water and laughter together as agents of healing and balance for our world.

The Practice

Capture some water in a cup or bowl. It can be water that is pure and clean from a local stream, tap water from your faucet, or even water local to you that is polluted in some way and needs cleansing and renewal. Hold the container in both hands in front of you.

Now, begin to laugh. Perhaps at first, it will feel silly, but keep going! Like Nabunum the eel, let go into the moment and allow laughter to carry you deeper until you reach a belly laugh, and the whole of you is laughing. Let your laughter be a gift and blessing to the water you hold. Let it open you to joy and delight, a moment of shared blessing with the life of the world.

The balance of water and the lightness of laughter are an interwoven Songline highlighting the trail we can walk through these turbulent times.

In honoring the power of stories in our lives and how storytelling is a wonderful way to celebrate our Equinox festival, we also invite you to bring forward stories of the power of water in your life, stories of bodies of water you love and care for, and also stories of the power of joy and laughter to transform and heal.

The Conversation continues with you and our Festival Celebration

Linda’s Australian Dreamtime story can be a parable for each of us and a source of inspiration to work with laughter and water as our allies and agents of healing, balance, and blessing.

We invite you to join us with your own contributions and attention to the energies of water, laughter, and balance in this Equinox season. Take up our practice as described above or choose other actions natural to you that can help to bless and extend the balancing energies of the Equinox into our world and lives. We will invite laughter to serve as an ally through this practice in our shared festival time online. However, if you feel drawn to add other balancing and blessing energies to strengthen the energies of this season, please do!

And consider joining us online on September 24th at 1pm PST as a part of our Festival Celebration in the Commons.

David's Desk #196

Findhorn and Beyond

David's Desk is my opportunity to share thoughts and tools for the spiritual journey. These letters are my personal insights and opinions and do not necessarily reflect the sentiments or thoughts of any other person in Lorian or of Lorian as a whole. If you wish to share this letter with others, please feel free to do so; however, the material is ©2023 by David Spangler.

I received word a few weeks ago that the Findhorn Foundation would be ceasing all its educational programs and closing its operations by the end of this month. For years, people from around the world have been coming to this spiritual center in the north of Scotland to participate in its residential programs and to help in the community. The valid desire of people to reduce their carbon footprint by not traveling, plus the COVID pandemic and the new Brexit regulations had all cut off this flow of visitors and guests, leaving the Foundation without income and without volunteers. The recent fires that destroyed both the main Sanctuary and the Community Center didn’t help, either. All these things proved a perfect economic storm that the Foundation couldn’t weather.

This was sad news. As a co-director of the community for three years beginning in 1970 and a close friend of Peter and Eileen Caddy and Dorothy Maclean, the three founders of the community, Findhorn has occupied a special place in my heart. It was the place where I met my wife. It was also the place where those of us who formed the Lorian Association in 1974 first met and began working together. Both Findhorn and Lorian share a complementary vision of helping the impulse towards a new holistic culture emerge, though we have gone about it using different strategies. I think I had taken it for granted that Findhorn would always be there.

But things are not always as they seem on the surface. After the initial shock of the announcement had passed, I had an interesting experience. I spontaneously found myself in contact with the Findhorn Angel, the angelic presence tasked with empowering the work and growth of that spiritual center. In essence, it said that all was well, that while an outworn form was being discarded, the spiritual work of the community was strong and continuing. Further, from the angel’s point of view, the “Findhorn community” wasn’t simply the people living in the physical environs of Findhorn but included all the thousands of people throughout the world who had touched the energy and vision of that spiritual center and had made it a part of their lives. The educational courses might be ending for a time until new structures evolve to contain them, but the living inspiration and impact of Findhorn’s spirit continues as strongly as ever.

Contacting friends who live in the actual Findhorn community, I was told that a new spirit of creativity and a determination to fulfill Findhorn’s founding principles and vision was alive and well there. Good people were seeking to shepherd the core of Findhorn’s work into new forms more appropriate for the world we have today. I am confident they will succeed. Findhorn Strong!

I bring this up because, in a story like this, it’s possible to look at what is happening in three ways. The story could be one of ending and grief. Findhorn has come to an end; certainly, the Findhorn Foundation that we’ve known for the past fifty years has done so. Or the story could be one of new beginnings and hope. The community is letting go of an old form that no longer works, which opens up the possibility of something better emerging. Or the story could be that both are true, that reality is complex, and we live in a time when endings and beginnings are mixing together in ways that are threatening, uncomfortable, exciting, and creative all at the same time.

If the latter is the story we choose, then we need to rise to the challenge of embodying a consciousness that can handle the complexity with equanimity and poise. Like a surfer riding a constantly changing wave that is crashing and moving forward at the same time, we need to develop a sense of inner balance so we are not thrown off into deep waters. Fear and despair, anger and loss are all around us, but so are hope and courage, creativity and empowerment.

I feel we need to be suspicious of simple stories. “Oh, Findhorn has collapsed!” or “Wow, Findhorn is evolving!” We need stories worthy of the complexity of the world around us, not to mention the complexity of people, that allow us to see that many things are happening at once, and that we need to respond to the whole of it.

What is happening to Findhorn evokes sadness and grief in me but also excitement and creative joyousness. What is happening in the world evokes anxiety, sadness, and anger in me but also hope and the empowerment of new vision and new possibilities. Both bad and good things are happening, and my story of this moment needs to embrace both and not focus on just one or the other. I believe firmly in holding the whole picture in a centered way within myself, for that is when I truly feel the emergence of a spirit that in its love creates the space for healing and renewal.

On September 24, from 2 pm EST to 3:30 pm EST, my wife Julia and I will be joined by Roger and Katherine Collis and Mary Inglis in an online conversation discussing the ongoing story and inspiration of Findhorn and its work celebrating the sacredness of all creation, a work that is part of Lorian’s vision as well. Roger and Katherine are two of the founders of Lorian who also shared time with Julia and me at Findhorn while I was a co-director. Mary Inglis currently lives in the Findhorn Community and has been part of its growth and work for over forty years. This event is being sponsored by the Center for Contemporary Mysticism. If you are interested, here is a link for further information and for registration.


AN EXPERIMENT

One of the advantages of David’s Desk being digital is that I can do things I couldn’t if it were printed. My Lorian colleague and friend, James Tousignant, and I do podcasts together. He thought it might be interesting to you, my Reader, if he and I were to have a discussion around the theme of that month’s essay and then add the audio at the end. That way, you could both read my thoughts for that month and also listen to me talk about them with James. So, without further ado, here is this month’s conversation. I hope you enjoy it and the added dimension it brings to David’s Desk.

Nature Notices

Recently walking along the footpaths of our land in the foothills of the Oregon Cascades, a naturalist friend marveled at the species diversity along the way. It wasn’t always like that. Continually mowed before our purchase, much of the land was blackberries and canary grass. In the twenty years since then, we have ceased mowing. With help from the local watershed council, my wife has planted over five-hundred trees. Now I look out my window at Hemlock, Douglas Fir, Redwood, Western Red Cedar, and a Cottonwood over seventy feet tall.

I recalled earlier walks this past spring and remembered the Trilliums that popped up along the wooded paths. They led the way. Then their cousins, the Fairybells and Twisted Stalk, followed. Along came the Bleeding Hearts, Pacific Waterleaf, Fringe Cups, Candy Flower, and many more to fill in all the gaps of the forest floor. Though many of these species were here twenty years ago, their profusion was not. What changed? The wooded areas were unmowed and untended before we came. We left them that way, just creating narrow pathways for walking. Why is the understory so verdant now? My only activity was walking these paths with attention, appreciation, and sometimes joy for what I saw growing along them.

Several weeks later, my wife and I strolled through the newly seeded village park near our home. We admired the Yarrow and California Poppies scattered about in a bed of Red Clover. The next day I attended my Tai Chi class at the local library overlooking the park. During class, I spotted several men carrying string trimmers. Knowing they planned to shear off the wildflowers and civilize the park, I was dismayed. I felt helpless.

Yes, I was physically helpless. I’m not in charge of the municipal park's landscape management. However, I could turn my appreciation of the wildflowers into a subtle alert, calling out subvocally, “There’s a storm coming; be prepared.” Reaching out to Pan, I asked this universal Gaian being to pass along the alarm. Immediately, I sensed the maple trees adjacent to the Tai Chi space become startled by a human in their midst. Then I felt the wildflowers beyond them acknowledge the warning and respond with gratitude. This response took place in the blink of an eye, but I knew the natural
world had noticed me.

Reflecting on my two experiences, I sensed how nature weaves together matter and spirit. My experiences enhanced my appreciation of the natural world and strengthened my sense of wholeness. These events triggered an inner dialogue that stimulated three questions as I prepared for the course I’m facilitating this fall. They centered around the mutual awareness between ourselves and nature when we immerse ourselves in it.

These questions are:

–When I observe the natural world, is Nature aware of me?
–When I enhance my sensory appreciation of my natural surroundings, do I create a deeper connection to nature beings?
–And, when I expand my perception of the natural environment, does Nature benefit?

Framing the questions differently, I might ask. What emerges when you merge science and sensitivity? Are both beneficial?

A friend of mine said to me recently,

“I hear the call of nature, but she asks me not to see her with my eyes nor hear her with my ears. Rather she asks me to build alliances with her within my heart. She wishes me to be with her as a partner, not as an object of study.”

I agree. If our minds and hearts are not one, we fall into the mental trap of identification and classification. We short-circuit our capacity for a more profound connection with the natural world. What if our minds and hearts are one when we hear Her call and observe Her with the whole of our presence?

Unable to answer this question myself, I thought of a much older friend who might be able to. We have become acquainted over the past couple of years. I don't know how old he is, but judging by his girth, I estimate his age to be over three hundred but less than five hundred years. As a Douglas Fir in a nearby remnant old-growth forest, he (my sense of his presence) stands along a path I frequent weekly. I seldom ask him a direct question. However, who else in nature could I turn to? So, coming to him with a clear mind and open heart, I placed my palm upon his bark and asked, “When humans notice you or other plants and animals, does this aid Nature?”

There was an unequivocal "Yes" from him and the surrounding forest. They continued,

"When you perceive and acknowledge us, you create a connection between the two of us. We sense this as love. With love, we thrive. The more you focus your awareness on us, the deeper this loving connection becomes. Love for us is the energy for life. We manifest more fully in this loving connection."

After this, the forest voice fell silent. The songs of birds and the buzzing of insects returned. Gratitude and joy filled me. Overflowing with lightheartedness, I walked to my car. The grandfather tree and the forest answered my questions. Yes, our appreciation supports and benefits the natural world. Even the simple act of noticing creates beneficial loving relationships. By deepening our awareness, we foster the possibility of communication and cooperation between ourselves and nature.


Ron Hays will be co-leading a 9-week class called "Deepening Into Nature and Oneself" along with Deb Scrivens and Mindy Springer. Click here for more info and to register.

David's Desk #195

Take a Breath

No wisdom or insights to offer with this David’s Desk. James, my podcast partner, is off on a kayaking expedition, and I’m feeling empty-headed (though not empty-hearted)! After all, it’s August, traditionally a vacation month here in the United States. It’s a time to take a breath, relax, and recharge in order to be in the best shape for the remainder of the year and the new year to come. Given how our planet is cooking, letting us know in the most definite way that a new climate normal is upon us, and given the fact that, in the USA at least, we’re starting into a new and fraught Presidential campaign year which will certainly raise the social temperature, it seems like this time is needed to get our mental, emotional, and spiritual houses in order for whatever’s ahead.

So, please, in whatever way serves you, take time to have fun, relax, and take that recharging breath! I’ll see you again in the fall.

Blessings,
David

The Grail, The Wasteland, and the Chalice of the Heart

I have been thinking about the Grail traditions and the present world situation holding together in my awareness a sense of T S Eliot's wasteland, The High History of the Holy Graal, the experience of the world wars and the sense of being alive here and now.

I am reading what I might call my local Grail text, The High History, which was said to have been written in Glastonbury Abbey. I am reading it in the Sebastian Evans translation, which while not the most accurate, is in wonderful English.

This text draws on potent ancient welsh traditions as well as drawing in Templar imagery. It shares with the Master Blihis text, The Elucidation, the experience of the Wells of Joy having dried up and that all cups and chalices have vanished. It is a remarkable work deeply interwoven with the fate of the Land.

We learn that there are no chalices to be found in all of Arthur's land until Arthur experiences the Grail mass. We are told that in the Mass, the Grail appears in 5 forms that are not named but are concealed in other places in the text–the Lance, the Sword, the Stone, the Child and finally the Chalice.

At this mass, the grail priest rings a magical bell cast by Solomon long ago and this becomes the prototype for all church bells in Arthur's realm. He brings the chalice back to his land and magically every church now has a chalice and the bells ring from each church tower. The incorporation and the embodiment of the chalice is the key and pivot point of the grail story and the answer to the wasteland.

The drying up of things in the wasteland is wonderfully described by Eliot:

"What are the roots that clutch, what branches grow
Out of this stony rubbish? Son of man
You cannot say, or guess, for you know only
A heap of broken images, where the sun beats,
And the dead tree gives no shelter, the cricket no relief,
And the dry stone no sound of water. Only
There is shadow under this red rock,
(Come in under the shadow of this red rock)
And I will show you something different from either
|Your shadow at morning striding behind you
Or your shadow at evening rising to meet you;
I will show you fear in a handful of dust."

It is this situation, we find the Grail seekers addressing in the High History of the Holy Graal. Each has to find a way to deal with their personal wasteland: Lancelot has to address his fixation with Guinevere and find a way to look beyond her, Arthur must renew vision and bring this vision back to Logres, Gawain must resolve the tension of the opposites, while Perceval must remain true to his innocent nature like the Fool of the Tarot–it is by simple being that he prevails.

Another great description of the Wasteland is given by David Jones in his 1974 poem A,a, a Domine Deus, in which he addresses the robotic mechanical nature of modern life:

I said, Ah! what shall I write?
I enquired up and down.
(He's tricked me before
with his manifold lurking-places.)
I looked for His symbol at the door.
I have looked for a long while
at the textures and contours.
I have run a hand over the trivial intersections.
I have journeyed among the dead forms
causation projects from pillar to pylon.
I have tired the eyes of the mind
regarding the colours and lights.
I have felt for His wounds
in nozzles and containers.
I have wondered for the automatic devices.
I have tested the inane patterns
without prejudice.
I have been on my guard
not to condemn the unfamiliar.
For it is easy to miss Him
at the turn of a civilisation.
I have watched the wheels go round in case I
might see the living creatures like the appearance
of lamps, in case I might see the Living God projected
from the Machine. I have said to the perfected steel,
be my sister and for the glassy towers I thought I felt
some beginnings of His creature, but A,a,a Domine Deus,
my hands found the glazed work unrefined and the terrible
crystal a stage-paste ...Eia, Domine Deus.

In his great poem The Anathemata, he gives us his sense of the grail Mass:

We already and first of all discern him making this thing other. His broken syntax, if we attend, already shapes:
ADSCRIPTAM, RATAM, RATIONABILEM. . . and by preapplication, and for them, under modes and patterns altogether theirs, the holy and venerable hands lift up an efficacious sign….

The cult-man stands alone in Pellam’s land: more precariously than he knows he guards the signa: the pontifex among his house-treasures, (the twin-urbes his house is) he can fetch things new and old: the tokens, the matrices, the institutes, the ancilia, the fertile ashes —the palladic foreshadowings: the things come down from heaven together with the kept memorials, the things lifted up and the venerated trinkets…

Within the railed tumulus
he sings high and he sings low.
In a low voice
as one who speaks
where a few are, gathered in high room
and one, gone out…

In the prepared high-room
he implements inside time and late in time under forms
indelibly marked by locale and incidence, deliberations made
out of time, before all oreogenesis
on this hill
at a time's turn
not on any hill
but on this hill."

Here we see the preparation for the rite the gathering together of the heap of broken images and the stepping into the sacred enclosure. This is followed by the gathering of all who need to enter into the communion with the healing presence of Christ. Jones makes reference in one of the notes that in the rite of the fourth century Egyptian Bishop, Serapion, the Eucharist is regarded as a recalling of all the dead so that as the Mass is made it touches all space, all time, and all the living and the dead. The manifestation of the chalice is the great moment of recollection and redemption. In the words of Sarojini Naidu the 20th century Indian writer and political activist:

“The Divine Chalice
The hearts of true worshippers,
emptied of self,
form a perfect chalice,
wherein Divine power can be outpoured.
A group of souls meeting together in some holy sanctuary of God can, week by week, form a nucleus whereby the Divine power may be captured in the empty cup of their hearts,
From this Divine Chalice can go forth a mighty power, or spiritual ray, to help this suffering world.
First the empty cup, then the divine outpouring, and then the absorbing whereby the body of
Christ may be strengthened to give out to others from this Divine Chalice.”

In a sense the absence of the chalice that the High History of the Holy Grail speaks of is the fundamental reason that the wasteland comes to be for without the capacity to make space, resonate and create communion we find ourselves in a world without colloquy and conversation–a dead and deadening world.

The IS gestures of awareness in which we enter into Sovereignty, connect with Self-Light, and practice Grail Space brings the chalice of communion into operation. My Sidhe companion Melusine uses a phrase that sums up the heart of this practice, ”The one Tree that is a thousand Trees, the thousand Trees that are one Tree” or, to put it another way, the relationship of the All with the Small. This speaks of the way in which we exist within a series of nested interconnected fields. As we enter sovereignty in an act of conscious incarnation we become present and we experience ourselves at centre and edge, giving us an experience of both our own unique generativity and our connection of the field of all life. As we bring this sense of uniqueness (the small) into relationship with the universe (the All), we align with the presence of the Christ–here experienced as a living force that promotes development and coherence. This alignment deepens our connection with the Generative Mystery at the heart of our being and our capacity to embrace all that we touch.

As we move outwards in response to the intention of incarnation the ability of the body to map and include (which is a reflection of the incarnational impulse) comes into play and there is a meeting between our vector and the vectors of  the manifest and subtle worlds that are closest to us. In that meeting a conjoined field is formed which is in itself a creative beginning, a star of life, which as in the fertilised egg creates a new being with a new DNA (to use that metaphor)  configuration formed from the inter-twining of the incarnational fields.

My own practice of Grail Space always begins with entering into Sovereignty and acknowledging whatever I am sitting on. There is a sensation of taking my seat in a way that is much more than physical; the sense of being supported and of there being a sense of space for me to rest in operates at so many levels physically of course but also psychologically and spiritually. There is also a sense of me receiving the seat’s capacity to hold space and offer support which assists me as I acknowledge the other forms around me such as the candle on my shrine, a wall hanging etc.

To give another example as I hold my tea cup in my hands, allow myself to become present and enter the felt sense of Ian holding the cup and invite the cup to be present with me, there is a moment of meeting and vibration which includes the sense of "this is my cup, which I like.” I am aware of the history of the cup and the potter who made  it etc. Then I start to feel its cupness, the sense of clay and fired earth that is its substance, I feel its energetic form also so as well as its solidity I feel its vibratory nature meeting it as both particle and wave.

At the same time, I sense it responding to me and I have a sense of my cup-ness in response, as this becomes more vivid I have a wider and deeper sense of myself and the cup as aspects of both Gaia and the sacred and as  this happens there is an intensity of life and presence that appears which becomes a wave of expression moving in all directions.

At the heart of this expression is a non-sentimental love and care that is both the root of the experience and its currency, a mutual mirroring that enables a star of blessing to appear. As the experience dissipates the intensity goes away but I, and the cup are changed subtly. My colleague Melusine comments,

“It is the meeting of two standing waves in which the standing wave that is my constancy makes room for and is enriched by the standing wave of the other–when you spoke of the exercise with the cup you showed the process in which the cup receives Ian-ness and Ian receives cup-ness. There is a transmission and augmentation that arises and a bond that is created that is permanent. The creation of such bonds of connection is a creative art with the Sidhe, a setting up of webs of union which enables new life to flower in new ways–it is a meeting beyond time and space in which the all is enfolded and made visible in the small.”

Grail Person, by Jeremy Berg

The Lorian image of the Grail Person shown above visually sums up the whole process we have been looking at. As we embrace our human form we become rooted in the green and golden universe like a tree and like King Arthur in the High History of the Holy Grail, bring the radiance and blessing of the chalice back into the world causing the Wasteland to be irrigated and to flower. In this way we enter our deeper more complex form as the mediating presence and as the living Grail but the doorway for me at least is always through the apparently simple act of becoming present to my 68 year old body just as it is and being able to listen to its music even when seemingly out of tune or creaky.

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There will always be light

This month, I offer a reflection on the future, one that I know will come to pass. This is not a prophecy—I don’t have that power!—but it’s not a speculation, either. It is the realization, and the promise, that within human beings, whatever the circumstances of their lives, there will always be Light.

Not that everyone will realize this, of course, nor even express it. But the reality is there, nonetheless, for we are all, outer coverings notwithstanding, beings of Light, born of sacredness and love.

What prompted these thoughts is that I am a grandfather with a granddaughter who just turned three a week ago and a grandson who just turned three months. As I’m sure most grandparents do, I cannot help thinking about their futures and the world in which they will grow up.

We can see some of the possible shapes their future can take as climate change leads to political, social, and economic instability within and among nations. It will be a challenging future for humanity and for the natural world that sustains us. The list of dangers they and their children may face is long and growing longer as the older generations put off the hard decisions of change that will be necessary.

But my generation faced dangers, too. I remember being terrified of contracting polio. It was a scourge of childhood in my day until Jonas Salk invented his vaccine. And the Bomb and the specter of a nuclear World War III were prevalent when I was growing up (something I was keenly aware of as I grew up on a United States Strategic Air Command base in Morocco, a definite target because of the nuclear bombers stationed there). For all that these and other dangers were present, it was my world, the one I knew, and I found it an exciting, wondrous place. The Sacred and its joy and Light were a resource I could tap into if I chose to do so.

When my parents and I returned from Morocco, my Dad started a consulting business. Though he was a wonderful consultant, he was not a good businessman, and his company went bankrupt. Afterward, my father had difficulty finding any employment. As a result, for much of my teenage years, we were very poor, with my mother as our primary source of income working as a nurse. I remember my bed was a mattress supported by boxes, and our dining room table was a flat board also resting on boxes, as we couldn’t afford proper furniture. Yet, it was during this time that I experienced a time of accelerated spiritual growth, coming into greater and greater awareness of the subtle dimensions. I look back on those years not as ones of privation but as years of love and joy and excitement. This was partly because of the love my parents had for each other and for me and partly because I chose to see my world in a positive light.

I remind myself of this when I think of what may be ahead for my grandchildren. Whatever shape their world takes, it will be their world because they will have grown up in it and will take it as the way things are. The effects of climate change, for instance, may seem like a new normal for me but it will simply be normal for them, the only world they know. And it will hold forth the same possibilities of joy and excitement, creativity and discovery for them that my world did for me. This is because whatever the shape of the world, they will have within them the capacity to bring their own inner Light, their own love to it, drawing forth the same from their world.

Modern apocalyptic fiction is fond of presenting visions of the future that are grim, distressing, brutish, and depressing. But this is because the apocalyptic imagination is one of loss, not of gain or of possibility. It measures the future against the past and present and finds it coming up short because the writers and dramatists are not native to that future. It is a strange, unwelcoming place because it is not their world; it is the picture of the loss of their world.

But human beings have lived joyous, creative, and fulfilled lives in the past before what we think of as “our world” ever came into being or even was imagined. The ability to do so is inherent in us. The Light of joy, of love, of creativity, and of possibility is always in us if we make the effort to bring it forth; generations before ours have done so, even in the most challenging of situations. People are doing that now. The generations that follow us will be able to do so as well. It is a matter of choice, and a matter of tapping into the depths of who we are as beings of Light.

It is in these depths that the promise of our future—and our present—lies.


An Experiment

One of the advantages of David’s Desk being digital is that I can do things I couldn’t if it were printed. My Lorian colleague and friend, James Tousignant, and I do podcasts together. He thought it might be interesting to you, my Reader, if he and I were to have a discussion around the theme of that month’s essay and then add the audio at the end. That way, you could both read my thoughts for that month and also listen to me talk about them with James. So, without further ado, here is this month’s conversation. I hope you enjoy it and the added dimension it brings to David’s Desk.

On Being a Gaian Human

Gaia’s year turns round, and we find ourselves once more at Solstice time. Light and heat gather in the Northern Hemisphere, where the greatest expansion and exhalation of Gaia’s breath brings forth abundant flowers, ferns, and blossoms. And in the Southern Hemisphere, where Gaia’s breath is a fully contracted inhalation now, the last flowers and fruit fall to the ground as the cold, quiet darkness of winter deepens.

For two and a half years now, our Gaian Festival team–Freya Secrest and Lucinda Herring from the Northern Hemisphere, and Linda Engle and Ara Swanney from the Southern lands–have been exploring how to celebrate the Solstices and Equinoxes in a Gaian way. We have gathered together online with others who have joined us from the Lorian Commons and with our invited allies and spirits of place and land to experience a more holistic understanding of these seasonal threshold times, and to honor the spirit of Gaia and the whole planet in our celebrations. A Gaian holistic understanding meant that we were not only celebrating where we individually found ourselves at a festival gateway, but also weaving the experiences our friends were having on the other side of the planet at the same time. We wove Summer and Winter Solstice together and Spring and Autumn Equinox together, and, in doing so, explored the question “What does it mean to create a Gaian Festival of Wholeness?” 

But lately, we have been asking a different question, one that we trust will only enhance and deepen the one above. 

“What does it mean to be a Gaian Human Being, and how can this be experienced, honored and celebrated at the seasonal festival times?”

This is a shift in focus–from experiencing who we are in relationship to Gaia’s seasons, to who we are in relationship to the planetary being and spirit of Gaia as a whole. 

I thought I would share my own exploration of this question as the Solstice time draws near.

At our most recent Kinship Circle, during our meditation, I became aware of my mother, who died 22 years ago June 4th (the day we were gathering). Her presence was very strong, and she affirmed to me that I was standing in our Mother line or lineage, and doing a Mother line work in my life now as the Summer Solstice draws near. I have just moved to Baltimore for the summer, to help my daughter Eliza and her husband James relocate to the area, and to care for my granddaughter Gwenna until September, when she goes back to school. I, my mother, my daughter, and my granddaughter–four generations in my family–were all in the Kinship Circle together. And all of us were being held by Gaia, the Great Mother, in a powerful field of blessing and support and love–a field that also included my grandmother, great-grandmother and ancestors going back to the first human beings on this planet. It was a very special experience.

Later that day I found a quote on Facebook that underlined my experience in the Kinship Circle:

“All the eggs a woman will ever carry form in her ovaries while she is a four-month-old fetus in the womb of her mother. This means our cellular life as an egg begins in the womb of our grandmother. Each of us spent five months in our grandmother's womb, and she in turn formed in the womb of her grandmother. We vibrate to the rhythm of our mother's blood before she herself is born, and this pulse is the thread of blood that runs all the way back through the grandmothers to the first mother.”
–Layne Redmond, When the Drummers Were Women.

 This quote was such an affirmation of my Kinship Circle experience and brought me even closer to a body and somatic understanding of a seamless Mother line that is sourced from Gaia’s greater womb of creation. I could tangibly feel that as a human being, I am an integral part of Gaia’s body and soul. And therefore, what I think, feel, say, and do truly matters to Gaia’s health and wholeness. 

This affirmation is linked to a wonderful vision I received at our Equinox celebration and again at our Lorian gathering in March of this year. I saw within my own womb a “Seed Earth, “a vision of an evolving planetary being–Gaia–whose gestation and emerging manifestation is intimately a part of and even depends on my own growth and evolution as a human being. My festival experiences have affirmed that we are indeed Gaian Humans, being birthed anew ourselves, and in return helping birth a new Seed Earth for the future well-being of all life on this beloved planet we call home.

Please consider joining us for our Solstice celebration Monday June 19th at 1 pm Pacific time. Those who are participating have been invited to take a photo of their feet standing on their land/place/garden and to make that photo a work of art and beauty. You are also invited to work with a chosen ally in some way and to invite them to our festival and share about that partnership with others. We will be creating a special visual Circle of Wholeness (our feet and our land) standing together at Solstice and celebrating the wonder of being Gaian Humans together.

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Spectrums and Ladders

You don’t have to read far or often in spiritual and metaphysical literature to come across the idea of the physical world—the Earth—being on the bottom rung of a spiritual ladder, at the top of which is God. It is a common perspective that when we incarnate, we “descend” into the dense, earthly sphere, leaving our home in the Light-filled “higher” realms. When we practice some form of spiritual development, we speak of moving “up.” God, Angels, Devas, and other helpful spirits are almost always described as being “higher” than we are. 

This hierarchical view pervades Western culture (and likely Eastern culture as well, though I am less familiar with that). And there is some truth behind this perspective. As someone who is sensitive to subtle energies, I do experience a difference in frequency and vibration between different types of subtle beings; some definitely feel “faster” in their rate of vibration while others feel “slower.” I also fall into using the “ladderly” language of “higher” and “lower.” It’s convenient, it’s familiar, it’s descriptive…and, in important ways, it's wrong.

I’ve been watching a television show about explorers having to make their way across the Alaskan wilderness. Sometimes, the terrain is open and clear. Their way is relatively easygoing, and they can move quickly. At other times, though, they are bushwacking through very dense forest and shrubbery, and their progress is slow and often obstructed by fallen trees, clumps of thorny bushes, and so forth. Naturally, they prefer the former over the latter as it’s less work and they can make better time. But the dense forest and the clear terrain are not “lower” or “higher” than each other in an evaluative (not a geographical) sense; one is not intrinsically better than the other. One is not “closer to God.”

They are their own environment, each offering something the other does not. For instance, while travel is easier in the open terrain, the explorers are exposed to fierce, cold winds, from which they are protected in the denser undergrowth.

Similarly, scientists brave the difficult terrain of the Amazonian rainforest and jungle because there are plants and animals there found nowhere else—certainly not in the open pampas or prairies of, say, Argentina—and which contain clues and insights into new medicines or new ecological understanding. Of course, strolling through a lovely English countryside with tame gardens and gently rolling hills is going to be a lot easier than hacking through a jungle, but that doesn’t make the jungle a “lower” realm. Every environment offers its own gifts and its own challenges.

If I despise or struggle with the environment I’m in and wish I were somewhere else, I may miss seeing its gifts. The environment may be difficult and challenging, but it still has something, perhaps many things, to offer if I am open to seeing them.

Of course, physical ecosystems and their differences are not exactly the same as energetic or spiritual ecosystems (or planes, or levels, whatever image you prefer), so there are limits to the metaphor. But let’s look at another example.

The electromagnetic spectrum represents electromagnetic waves of different frequencies, from the very low such as radio waves and microwaves to the very high such as x-rays. “Higher” and “Lower” here, again, are not evaluative terms; they don’t speak to the relative merit (or “closeness to God”) of the two ends of the spectrum. They are descriptive of energy characteristics such as wavelength and rate of vibration. Right now, as I write, I’m eating a lunch heated in my microwave, a nice, hot lunch rather than a cold one. Later, I may watch some television. Both of these are possible due to low-frequency energy. On the other hand, when years ago I injured my leg, it was an x-ray that showed the bone was broken and thus guided the kind of appropriate medical attention that I received. X-rays occupy the high-frequency end of the electromagnetic spectrum.

I’m grateful for X-rays, microwaves, and radio waves! I’m grateful for the electromagnetic spectrum (which includes visible light, by the way, which enables us to see), not for some electromagnetic “ladder” that tells me I should eschew the lower frequencies (thus no hot lunches and no television or radio) and seek the higher levels of x-rays (which, by the way, can kill me!).

One of my subtle colleagues once said, “There are no lower vibrations to God’s perspective.” In other words, the Sacred is present within all vibrational levels in creation. There is no place, no level, no dimension, in the living universe where God is not. This is a key component of Incarnational Spirituality. It lets us know that the physical dimension, the physical world in which we are incarnated, is also a sacred realm, one filled with God’s Presence and Light, as much as any other dimension of energy and consciousness. God does not play favorites.

None of this means that living in the physical world doesn’t have challenges; we all know it does. Being incarnate here often means we’re doing energetic and spiritual bushwacking.  No wonder so many who move on into the Post-Mortem and subtle realms communicate their delight at finding themselves in an environment that seems so graceful and Light-filled. The Alaskan explorers were always happy to emerge from the bush into clear terrain as well. But this doesn’t make the physical world lesser in its sacredness or removed from the Love and Presence of the Sacred. Energy may move more slowly here but it’s still God’s living energy.

I have visited subtle realms where the matter and energy of which they are composed are extremely sensitive and responsive to thought. I can imagine a chair, for example, and one will appear like magic. That doesn’t happen for me here in this world. On the other hand, think of what’s involved if I get up from my computer and walk into the living room and sit in a chair there. It seems a simple action to me, but this thought, this intention, has set into motion a myriad of chemical changes within me, changes that allow muscles to contract or expand, blood to move faster, senses adjusting to keep me in balance and not falling as I move (after all, walking is a form of controlled falling). Literally, millions of tiny collaborations, cooperations, integrations, communications, partnerships, exchanges, and transformations are going on within the ecosystem of my body to enable me to walk across the room and sit down. What a richness of life! What a bonanza of love!  What a plethora of sacredness! All set in motion by imagination and intention. Match that magic, subtle realms!

When I said that the metaphysical, metaphorical ladder of planes and levels is wrong, what I mean is that it conveys a value system that doesn’t exist in the sacredness of creation. There is a spectrum of higher and lower, faster and slower, denser and clearer, manifestations of God, but there is no ladder in which one is more valuable, more sacred, more “real,” than another. We are asked to exchange the ladder for the spectrum.

Why this is important here is the attitude we bring to our life on earth. We are asked to love where we are, to love this world, to be open to its sacredness, even as we bushwack through its challenges. This is why incarnation is a spiritually rich endeavor, a sacred endeavor. When we stand in this realization, we change, and the world changes around us, for we see with a vision that is spacious and loving, not constrained, constricted, and wishing only to climb to the next rung and forget this one ever existed. 

When we stand in this realization, we celebrate the miracle that we are, wherever we are. When we do this, God rejoices in being allowed to be present!

An Experiment

One of the advantages of David’s Desk being digital is that I can do things I couldn’t if it were printed. My Lorian colleague and friend, James Tousignant, and I do podcasts together. He thought it might be interesting to you, my Reader, if he and I were to have a discussion around the theme of that month’s essay and then add the audio at the end. That way, you could both read my thoughts for that month and also listen to me talk about them with James. So, without further ado, here is this month’s conversation. I hope you enjoy it and the added dimension it brings to David’s Desk.

My Journey in Incarnational Spirituality

I feel as though I was experientially discovering Incarnational Spirituality long before I met David Spangler. My life processes led me through a personal discovery of the basic tenets of IS and, although I did not name them until David did with Incarnational Spirituality, I was finding many of the same truths.

Like many who are long standing Lorians I began a conscious spiritual journey in my late teens having been raised by a mom who studied The Infinite Way with Joel Goldsmith and read The Magic of Findhorn and a dad who loved the earth and all of nature deeply and profoundly. At 17 I decided I was Buddhist although I didn’t really know what that meant other than I wanted to look for the Christ Consciousness within people and I did not follow the beliefs of the traditional Christian churches.

Nonetheless, by age 25 my personal life was in shambles having gotten married at 19 to a man who soon became emotionally distant and often angry. I was also a happily employed school nurse teaching wellness and health classes. Through a series of workshops and classes I became exposed to processes that introduced me to the multidimensionality of consciousness including psychic connections and the power of beliefs to shape our world. Through one such process I experienced an inner calling and with tears of joy and singing I dedicated myself to the Great Mystery of the Sacred.

Soon I was learning Reiki from Hawaya Takata and also a meditation form that taught how to ground oneself in Spirit and  connect to one’s higher self in order to find answers to the practical questions of life as well as deepen one’s inner connection. And thus I began to explore Sovereignty and the Subtle Realms. I also began to integrate my knowledge of physical wellness from my professional education with the ideas of consciousness and healing I was learning.

From Reiki I learned that each person is a sovereign being and that my job as a healer was to offer the Universal Life Force as it came through me and let it connect with the receiver’s energy field and wisdom. I also learned what it feels like to have energy pouring through my hands and to believe in something completely invisible.

The most profound event in my life was discovering how to make the inner shifts that allow me to connect with the part of me that is connected to all the universe. Through a meditation process taught by James Craig Ewing I learned to do inner guidance in such a way that first I acknowledged the power of my individuality as a sacred being (akin to what I.S. calls “Self Light”) then created a “Grail Space” (without naming it as such) using guided imagery processes calling in light, love, and Christ energies, and then learned ways to ask “yes/no” questions so to get answers about my life. I combined these skills with those learned from American Academy of Guided Imagery about using guided imagery to connect to the wisdom of the body and what illness may be communicating.

I began to formulate my own inner processes to interconnect and create communication between by body, my emotions, my outer life, and to what I called at the time “God” during my thirties (what I now would call my higher self or a dimension of my Soul). From James I had learned that ego or personality was an ally, not an adversary, so I started with my interests and talents. As a health educator I developed a conceptual model called a “Wellness Star” to describe that health and well being had five spokes: Physical, Emotional, Mental, Social and Spiritual. I posited that each has importance when working to create wellness instead of illness and helped people explore each of those areas in the classes I taught. As a stress management consultant I learned to teach a variety of self care techniques including setting boundaries, valuing and loving self, and a variety of  relaxation techniques that were essentially ways to slow brain waves down, lower blood pressure and heart rate, and created a shift in consciousness of deep relaxation and inner connection.

I experimented on myself. Every day I meditated and explored how to deepen my inner connection and to how to recognize the different “felt senses” of different states of being. I experimented with breathing and imagery and a variety of techniques for traveling inward. I experimented with asking questions and then testing the answers in life to see if the answers I received bore themselves out in my every day experience. In David Spangler’s words I was working with “Vertical Sovereignty—the axis of connection, identity, and self-regulation and governance between the soul and the incarnate personality and body.”

I experimented with communicating with my physical symptoms to find out what they were about. I was able to heal my seasonal hay fever when I listened deeply to my body’s messages and discovered that hay fever was related to childhood experiences that were now in the past. By repetitively reassuring my body that those circumstances were gone and using relaxation exercises I eventually eliminated the symptoms. An ovarian cyst disappeared when, again asking it what it was trying to communicate, I discovered I needed to create a nurturing home nest for myself and spend more time there. In other words I was learning about my identity, appropriate boundaries, and how to emerge a more whole self.

Early on I had no sense of angels or guides or other subtle beings although occasionally people would mention sensing Angelic energy around me or see or feel Jesus the Christ nearby when I was giving Reiki. In retrospect I can see that I was learning how to trust myself and my own inner processes first; that I needed to learn to stand in myself and my own Self Light before I engaged with subtle beings.

Although those early years set the stage it was not until I had my cancer experience that I more fully incarnated. For many years I was able to feel at home–that is, safe and content–only during my meditations. Prior to having cancer, during a dark moment I asked beseechingly in meditation “Where is my home?” and clearly heard “inside yourself, you carry your home with you” and was shown the image of a turtle. In Incarnational Spirituality, Home is defined as “an inner and outer state of safety, empowerment, and nourishment, a loving state of being that enables us and others to discover and grow into our deepest selves. Home is a state of consciousness and connection that promotes the incarnational process.” And further, “The Sacred is the ultimate state of Home.” I was able to first find Home in my meditations for that is where I was able to connect with the Sacred. Having and healing cancer was my conduit for discovering being Home in a physical body on a physical plane and to continue to discover and grow into my deeper self.

When I discovered I had cancer I went into meditation and asked the same question I had asked my body’s symptoms before: “What do you want me to know?” I clearly heard back, “Let the anger out and let the Love in.” I also looked at my life from the perspective of the Wellness Star: Physical, Emotional, Mental/Intellect, Social/Relationships, and Spiritual. And I used my inner guidance meditations to explore and answer what and how to address each of these five areas of my personal Wellness Star. I did not perceive the cancer as a threat, but rather as a message. As David Spangler has said, “Challenges, imbalances, and difficulties can arise from any part of the incarnational system, not just from the personality. Likewise, wisdom, blessing, and skillful insight can arise from any part of the incarnational system, not just the soul.” From an Incarnational Spirituality perspective “the Personality is a dynamic blend of influences from the Emergent Soul, the Incarnate Soul (or “High Self”), the Body, personal psychological processes, and information from the environment, such as from parents, friends, society, autobiographical events, and so on. The main function of the Personality is to “particulate” the soul and enable it to connect with the particulate nature of the physical plane. In this sense, the Personality is understood in Incarnational Spirituality as a function rather than as our identity.” My experience is that one can say the exact same thing about the Body. And my body had cancer so something was out of balance and I set out to decipher the message knowing the process would bring me closer to wholeness or in IS terms Holopoiesis.

I also knew I might die from cancer although I intentionally set out to manifest health. I did not fear death as I intuitively understood and believed in life before and after this earthly life. Having read Autobiography of a Yogi by Yogananda and sensing the truth in it and other writings about a soul’s journey, I simply wanted to get the most juice out of my cancer, clear as much baggage as possible, and use it to become more connected with God. For me manifestation was formulating and imagining the goal, yet holding it with lightness and freedom and then following my inner guidance step by step, day by day, and trusting that the highest and best outcome would be created. Since my inner guidance comes from that soul part of me that is directly connected to the Sacred, and with testing had never been found to lead me astray, I trusted the process.

“Manifestation is the art of using consciousness and subtle forces to shape one’s life. Like the power to bless, it is an incarnational and spiritual skill innate in each human being. Using the five principles of Incarnational Spirituality (Identity/Intentionality, Boundary/Holding, Connection/Engagement, Emergence, Holopoiesis), Manifestation becomes more than just a simple act of “magical” acquisition using methods of attraction. It becomes an expression of creative and spiritual awareness that deepens an individual’s inner connections and presence within the world.”

–David Spangler

“Let the anger out and let the Love in” meant there was emotional work for me to do. I supported my body with a Macrobiotic diet because it understands the energy and life force of food. In many ways it expresses Incarnational Spirituality because of its emphasize on food and nature as being alive. I used daily Reiki treatments from my Reiki Master colleagues because it was about receiving (which I had not been good at) and community and worked energetically on the mind/body/spirit unit. I meditated every day because it was the source of inspiration and hope and also brought my psychoneuroimmunologic state into balance. Physicians and healers both alternative and western were utilized as seemed appropriate at the time and approved through my inner guidance meditations.

The layers of anger and pain started peeling off, first at my parents, then the abusive men in my life, sometimes small things that had happened with childhood friends, and then in past lives. I was surprised when I started to see how afraid I was of life and how little I respected myself. Beings from the Subtle Realms started appearing with support and love–Mother Mary inviting me to stand tall in my Female form, Mrs Takata reassuring me I was on the right path, Babaji with an immense and amazing Love requesting  me to stay embodied, and Jesus holding me in his arms with such Love and tenderness that I cried and cried with amazement that I was loved so. And eventually the memory of being sexually abused by my family doctor as a young child surfaced with nausea and dry heaves. Here was shame and denial and broken boundaries and a clear reason for breast cancer and a history of abusive partners.

It took a total of seven years to clear the cancer and become a being who doesn’t create cancer anymore. It included working with Flower Essences, a team of subtle beings, energetic healers, counseling, oncologists, experimental immunotherapy drugs that were in clinical trials, and many friends supporting me through difficult times. In once process I actually had the experience of incarnating into my legs more fully completing a process that I had stopped when I was four years old because I didn’t want to be here. I learned to receive as well as give, to become even clearer with my inner guidance, develop more fully my sense of self/identity, to express my feelings, and to set boundaries more easily.

I have held myself in my own lap many times to allow the pain of the past to express and resolve. I was guided to simply “tell my story” when others with cancer inquired about how I healed and to offer them my support and skill as a healer if they chose to do emotional spiritual work. “Incarnational Spirituality calls us to deeper interconnectedness and engagement with the world around us. Incarnation is not just a personal act but a communal one as well.” The more I healed emotionally the more sense I had of being present, fully here, and engaged with the world.

My post cancer life has been the last ten years. During this time my daily meditation practice has continued, I married Ron Hays who also lives into Incarnational Spirituality, I was guided how to find our land, we built a house collaborating with the spirits of our land, I explored the work of Dorothy Maclean  and Machaelle Small Wright more deeply and started working directly with the Devas of nature as well as nature elemental spirits more indirectly. I plant trees, I communicate with trees, and sometimes I energetically become a tree. My garden is now co-created with nature spirits as they guide me in choosing what and where and how to plant. I am a healer who uses inner guided healing processes along with the energy of Reiki to clear past trauma, and I often find that subtle beings appear to help a client directly or help me with a client.

I have only begun my exploration of the inner realms and myself and look forward to many more experiences and learning in the future. Incarnational Spirituality offers me inspiration, collegiality, and new insights. It is in many ways an exploration with guideposts. Many years ago when I read the book Every Day Miracles: The Inner Art of Manifestation by David Spangler I knew he knew something most people didn’t recognize about manifestation. Ron and I used the book’s exercises to manifest buying the beautiful acreage that called to me with the words “you can heal here” and in the process cleared many issues between us. When I read David’s Blessing book, I resonated with an author who viewed life as I did and who also called me to do more. I continue to learn from IS teachings as it offers ideas and processes that stimulate me. Some of these processes I adapt and use with clients in my private healing practice. Many I use in combination with my meditation/inner guidance practice to further my development of my Self Light. I am currently engaged in an exploration of my Sidhe connection and what this means for continuing to co-create a nature sanctuary on our land.

I am supported and strengthened by Incarnational Spirituality. The collective IS community and teachings respect and value inner work and this in turn validates and supports me in the life choices I make as a contemplative. My personal reflections with IS teachings and becoming a Lorian priest have furthered my sense of self and strengthened by ability to stand in myself. It affirms me.

I am led to explore more realms through Incarnational Spirituality. While the teachings of IS resonate in me as a reflection of what I know on a soul level and with experiences in my life, it also provides a larger conceptual framework that makes it easier to articulate and communicate with clients and friends and invites me to explore more of myself and life. It expands me.

Incarnational  Spirituality provides a community of Love and inclusivity. My friends and colleagues in Lorian are diverse, laugh and hug a lot, and are dedicated to furthering their own deep connection with Spirit and Gaia. Through IS I am given the privilege of being engaged with people who have a multiplicity of personalities and lifestyles yet all whom resonate with exploring the Sacred through their identity, boundaries, connections, and emergence in the “outer” and “inner” realms. I wrote a sign and posted it on my bedroom door when I was a teenager that said “Love Life, Live Love.” More than anything the essence of Incarnational Spirituality and of David Spangler is Love and it is this Love that continues to call me to IS as I move into my sixth decade.

 “Creating ‘collaborative mind’ or a ‘partnership presence’ in which energy, spirit, life, intelligence, and blessing may circulate between both sides of the ‘veil’ for the benefit of both” is an active exploration for me at this time. I am curious to see what kind of new field, presence or awareness develops for me in my garden, my healing practice, and my life. Will you join me?

In the last decade I have continued to be a part of Lorian and practice the principles of Incarnational Spirituality. I am a Healer. My role now is to assist with the emergence of the New Gaia and the New Human. For me this means much inner work—subtle activism and world work as I’m called to help heal the pain and fear in the world. I do much holding of the Light and being a portal for the unseen subtle beings of many realms  to enter human consciousness and experience. In many ways I and all the Lorians are part of a “transition team” who will likely not see the earth bear the fruit of our current work. We are called, however, to be present now. Present with the Sidhe, the Angels, the Devas, the post mortem beings, Nature, each other, Christ Consciousness, the divine feminine, and so many more we don’t know or have names for as yet. The personal healing and work I have done with myself and the insights of Incarnational Spirituality have led me to a place where I can stand strong in my sovereignty and be a blessing in the world. 

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Mystery Schools

Last October, my friend and fellow spiritual teacher, William Bloom, who lives in Glastonbury, England, sent out one of his regular “e-letters” (his equivalent to my David’s Desk) about what a contemporary Mystery School might look like. This in turn prompted a podcast conversation in January between Lorian faculty and board member James Tousignant and me about how Lorian fit the criteria that William outlined and might thus be considered a modern Mystery School.

The word “school” is familiar and ordinary; schools abound everywhere. Precede “School” with “Mystery,” though, and suddenly a patina of glamor is added. There is a sense of a place and a curriculum shrouded in secrecy and reserved for a special few. There is a promise of gaining knowledge and learning skills not available to the ordinary public and of initiation into the hidden wisdom and powers underlying creation itself.

Much of this glamor has arisen in the past two hundred years.  Historians know that the ancient Mystery Schools of Greece and Rome provided a combination of theological training, ceremony, and self-development, the “Mysteries” being insights into the spiritual nature of humanity and our relationship to nature and to the Divine within all things. Because of a scarcity of detailed knowledge about just what went on and what was taught in many of the Mystery Schools, the idea of “Mystery School” can become a screen on which people can project their own fantasies and desires. There is no doubt that the idea of a “Mystery School” has been used, especially in America, to enhance the commercial attractiveness of otherwise ordinary programs of metaphysics and pop psychology, particularly when veiled behind a curtain of secrecy to add to the glamor.

William, though, is European and not American, and perhaps has not been so influenced by these commercial dynamics. He is also not so interested in the theology and cultural beliefs. He is more influenced by the lived experience of ceremonies and practices that induct participants to feel, sense and cooperate with subtle realms and beings. For William, the heart of any Mystery School is a process where the aspirant is supported through rites and energy exercises to enter altered states of consciousness and experience archetypal and angelic states. For William, the challenge of a contemporary Mystery school is to translate the underlying principles and practices into an accessible form available to everyone who feels called to explore them.

There is important teaching in the Mystery Schools about the spiritual nature of the individual and of the world that enable a person to be a blessing to themselves and to bring blessing into the world. There is wisdom about the wholeness of the world and of ourselves and there are skills that can implement that wisdom, all of which are greatly needed to heal the toxicity in our societies today.  This knowledge, this wisdom, these skills could be called “Mysteries” in the sense that they partake of the mystery of who we are and what the world is as manifestations of sacredness. But they are no longer hidden. As William says in his e-letter, “the core secrets of the Mystery Schools are now open knowledge…commonplace in movies, television shows and books.” Both science and psychology, as well as mystical practice and spirituality, have taken down many of the veils that once made the deep truths about ourselves and the world mysterious. Not that there isn’t more to discover and learn, but now we can do so openly as part of life itself, not behind the secret walls of an institution.

What once were the Mysteries might now be called “applied holistic living,” living in a manner that blends both the physical and non-physical sides of our nature and of the world. Indeed, the function of any true Mystery school is not to revel in mysteries but to make the world less mysterious, more known, more understood in ways that enhance our ability to work collaboratively with the forces of creation because we are one of those forces. The function of a Mystery school is revelation and empowerment.

This is what we seek to do in Lorian, and it also is a hallmark of William’s work. In fact, by invitation of the Shift Network, William has been invited to create a “contemporary Mystery school” that fulfills the criteria he set forth in his e-letter. Happily, he is doing so, and there are few people as qualified as he is. I’m delighted to bring his work to your attention.

William calls the curriculum he is creating “Experiential Metaphysics,” offering a certification at the end of one year and, I gather, the possibility of a further Masters program. If you would like to know more about it, please go to his website.

This month the recorded conversation is between William, James, and myself. Enjoy!

An Experiment

One of the advantages of David’s Desk being digital is that I can do things I couldn’t if it were printed. My Lorian colleague and friend, James Tousignant, and I do podcasts together. He thought it might be interesting to you, my Reader, if he and I were to have a discussion around the theme of that month’s essay and then add the audio at the end. That way, you could both read my thoughts for that month and also listen to me talk about them with James. So, without further ado, here is this month’s conversation. I hope you enjoy it and the added dimension it brings to David’s Desk.

David Spangler Shift Network Interview with William Bloom April 2023

Editor’s Note: The transcript below has been lightly edited for clarity and readability.

This interview is part of the Psychic & Intuitive Abilities Summit a free online event. For more information, please visit https://psychicintuitiveabilitiessummit.com. This recording is a copyright of The Shift Network. All rights reserved.

William Bloom: Welcome, everyone! So glad you're joining us for this wonderful conversation and presentation. I'm very excited to introduce our special guest today, David Spangler. David has been a spiritual teacher for over 50 years. He was co-director of the Findhorn Foundation, which is Europe's leading eco-spiritual center, and then co-founded the Lorian Association based in Seattle, through which he teaches numerous classes. He is the author of many books, including Apprenticed to Spirit and Journey Into Fire. I'm very excited to be having a conversation with you, David, welcome. How are you today?

David Spangler: Thank you, William. I'm excited too and I'm fine today. Thank you.

William: Your work at the moment is primarily associated, in my mind anyway, with something that's called Incarnational. Spirituality. Could you tell us what it is and how you got involved with it in the first place?

David: Incarnational Spirituality has its focus on the sacredness of incarnation itself, of the embodied state and our presence in the world. I'll say a little bit more about that in a moment, but the way that I became involved was in a two step way, I guess. When I was 17, I was preparing to go to the university–I had just graduated from high school. A friend asked me what I wanted to do with my life and I said “I want to be a molecular biologist.” I’d no sooner said that when I suddenly had a vision and this subtle being appeared and said, “Actually, you're going to be involved with a spirituality of the incarnate state, a spirituality of being embodied and part of the earth.” I thought, well, that's fine, but that's something I'll do when I'm very much older and after I've been a successful molecular biologist.

William: Let me ask you a question immediately. You say this happened when you were 17?

David: It did.

William: So how come you took notice of this voice? Were you accustomed to having messages of this kind?

David: I was. I've been aware of the subtle dimension for as long as I can remember. Some of my earliest childhood memories are of connection with non-physical reality and with the energies that surround things in the world. I've always experienced everything in the world as being alive in a non-organic sense. So having this being appear, it wasn't like it was a regular daily occurrence, but it was not something with which I was unfamiliar.

William: And was this just inside your psyche as a kind of intuitive sense, or something more substantial?

David: In this particular instance, it was an interior experience. It was like having my attention shifted away from my friend with whom I was talking and suddenly I was having this interior vision. I was seeing what looked like a department store mannequin, a kind of representation of an embodied person. And this image would morph–it would change into an image of a grail or chalice and then it would shift back to a person. This happened three or four times and then I was aware of a being standing next to me and saying “David, your future is going to be involved with a spirituality of the sacredness of incarnation."

William: When you had this experience, which you trusted…I’m assuming–correct me if I'm wrong–I’m assuming there was a vibe, an atmosphere that was something you could trust. It was loving it was…

David: Oh, absolutely, yes. Very much so.

William: When people are trying to discern whether or not they should listen to the messages they receive, there's a criteria that’s applied, which is you check first of all whether it's loving or not loving.

David: Absolutely. Yes. I had had a very, very few experiences with running into non-loving energies–particularly around certain people whom I’d met or certain places. But for the most part, what I’d experienced as a child–and I grew up in a very loving atmosphere with my parents–what I'd experienced when I had these encounters with the subtle dimension was a sense of benevolence and caring and compassion and also playfulness. There was always a sense of joy, a deep sense of wonder and delight in life itself. If that wasn't present, if I did not feel that, then I would be suspicious of what it was that I was tuning into.

I had this experience and it wasn't like I then said, “Well, I'm now going to not go to the university, I'm going to go out and be a spiritual teacher.” I just thought, “Well, okay, that's information to put on the shelf. I really don't know what to do with that. So I'm just going to go ahead with the plans that I have”–which in fact, I did. It was three years later when I had this growing intuition that it was time for me to start a spiritual work.

William: What did that spiritual work look like? Because you were very young–you were in your early 20s.

David: Yeah, I was 20. At that time, my dad and mom had joined a metaphysical group in Phoenix, Arizona. We had moved there and they joined this group for various reasons. That was the first time that I actually encountered other people who were having clairvoyant experiences or psychic experiences of one kind or another. It was also the first time I realized that that was not something that people did normally. I just thought these were experiences everybody had and just simply didn't talk about. At that point, I was 14. I’d been part of the culture of groups in the Phoenix area that were studying metaphysics and UFOs and esoterics. It was the very beginning edges of what later became known as the New Age Movement.

William: How did that young man become a spiritual teacher and then go into evolutionary incarnational spirituality? How did that whole process happen?

David: One of the people we knew was a very famous psychic in those days, named Neva Dell Hunter. She was famous for doing trance channeling of past lives. She was kind of similar to Edgar Cayce. She'd been an advertising executive and then she developed this psychic ability and this ability to channel and that had become her work and she traveled around the country giving readings and holding conferences. Her inner contact was a man named Dr. Gordon and he said to her, “You need to do a conference in Phoenix, Arizona, and you need to have David Spangler as the keynote speaker.” She knew my parents, but she did not really know me. At that point, I was in college, and I knew her a bit. She contacted me and she said, David, I'm doing this conference that’s going to be on youth in the New Age and I'd like you to be the keynote speaker. I said, “Sure!” I thought it would be an adventure. I was the token youth. [chuckles]

William: Had you ever given a talk before?

David: I had–not on spiritual topics, but I had given talks in school and I felt comfortable doing that. The long and the short of it was I prepared for this talk–I had all these three by five cards with my notes and everything. I got up in front of this audience to give this talk and I just shifted into an altered state of consciousness. I was suddenly overlighted by a much larger version of myself in a kind of collaborative or collective mind. I felt myself in touch with two or three other subtle colleagues. I basically threw away my notes and I delivered this talk entirely spontaneously. It was about the changes going on in the subtle worlds as a consequence of this passing into the Aquarian Age.

As a result of that talk, I was invited to come to Los Angeles and give a series of talks. At the time, I said I wouldn't be able to do that because I was at the university. But there was this growing pressure within me that I should do this. I kept saying no, and there were a number of reasons for it. The Vietnam war was at its height and my father was very concerned that I might be drafted. I had scholarships, I had all these things that kept me in university and safe from the draft. And then one morning, I woke up and I literally couldn't think, I couldn't remember. I would go to class and I would have absolutely no comprehension of what the teacher had said. I would read a textbook and close the cover, and I couldn't remember what it said or what I'd read. I began failing in all my classes. I’d have these exams and I couldn't make out what they were asking me to answer, much less know the answer. And this was stuff that I've been getting straight A’s in until then. [So I finally relented and said] “Ok, I get the message, it's time for me to leave the university.” As soon as I had set that into motion, all that kind of loss of memory and everything disappeared. I answered this invitation to go to Los Angeles to do a series of talks, and one thing led to another and that's what I've done for the past 50 years,

William: You were forced into an altered state of consciousness over which you had no control?

David: I think part of me knew I needed to move on, that it was time for me to start doing this work, and my personality was resisting it. It's the only time in my life that I've had something like that happen. Some things stepped in, so to speak. It didn't feel to me like it was an intrusion from outside; it felt like something in me said, okay, we're going to say no to continuing with the college experience, and you really do need to pay attention and take this step.

William: When you were giving your first talks, did you know what you were going to say? Did you understand what was coming through? Was it part of your own wisdom, psyche, intuition speaking or was it something different, bigger?

David: Well, I didn't always know exactly ahead of time what I was going to say, but as soon as I stood up and began the talk, then I would know, I would have a sense of what it was I needed to say. What I needed to do, William, was I had to tune into the audience and I had to tune into the field that the audience and I created together. Once I'd done that, then I knew what I needed to talk about. The result of that is that I've always spoken extemporaneously–I’ve never been able to use notes. I find that they interfere with that process of tuning in and having a sense of what I need to say.

William: But let me ask you a question, then, which I'm sure will intrigue everybody: How do you tune in to your audience? What do you do?

David: Fundamentally, it's an act of love. I stand up in front of the group, the audience, and I quite consciously and deliberately look at them and just open my heart to them and feel I am here to serve them. Because at a very deep level, there is love that unites us; it’s an act of mutual support and upliftment. And so I'm here really as the servant of the audience, and I'm here as the servant of what wants to be a blessing for all of us in this occasion. That creates the sense of resonance with the field of the audience.

William: That is very beautiful, and I wish every teacher would do that. I wish every teacher would do that. So let's move us on now. Explain to us what Incarnational Spirituality is. What is it?

David: In the latter part of the last century, in late 1990s, I was visited by a subtle being–one with whom I had not had much contact with. I had been thinking about all the challenges that people were facing in the world and so on, and he came and he said, “The challenge for humanity is not that you are too incarnated; it's that you're not incarnated enough.” And then he left. I thought this was like one of those Zen koans. But I realized that he wasn't saying, “you all have to get more physical, you're just not in the body.” He was referring to a deeper process, or a deeper state of being.

Then I thought back to two things. One was an experience I'd had when I was seven years old that was really, for me, the thing that, if I were to say what really got me on the track of this work, that was it. I was living in Morocco at the time. My dad was in the military. We were stationed on a base in Morocco. I had this experience of going out of my body–it was the first time I'd had an out of body experience–and just uniting with my soul and feeling that presence of love and then recapitulating the act of will and love that brought me into incarnation. I experienced the process of incarnating and the joy and the love that was behind that–love for the earth, love for this world and for becoming part of it. I remembered that and I remembered something that my first ongoing spiritual colleague and partner and mentor said. He was a being I called John, who appeared to me for the first time when I went to Los Angeles and started doing this lecturing. He said it’s important to realize that we do not incarnate only into a body. A soul just doesn't step into a body the way a driver steps into an automobile; you incarnate into a system, you incarnate into a pattern of relationships–some of which are with the body, some of which are with other physical and earthly elements like the family and parents, but also just the general characteristics of the world. And others are more subtle–subtle forces make up some of what I call the incarnational system. He said when you think of incarnation, you need to think of being part of this system of connections and relationships, which extend both physically and non-physically into the material world and into the subtle world.

So when I had this experience with this being who said we weren't incarnated enough, I went back in memory to both my experience of incarnating and also to what John said, and I thought, well, I'm not sure what to do with this information, but I need to start exploring this and see what we can do to be more incarnated. Then, of course, I remembered the vision I'd had when I was 17 about being involved with a spirituality of incarnation. Putting all the pieces together, I said I need to find out or explore how we can be more incarnated as a whole system, not just simply being more in the body–although that's an important part of it as well; it’s part of a whole system.

I began teaching this and realized that a number of the people who came to my workshops and lectures were struggling with being embodied. Their spiritual teaching, you might say, or the information they had picked up over the years from various traditional religious sources or otherwise, was a need to get out of the body, out of the physical, out of the human and into some transcendental realm. Years ago, John said, the problem is with the transcendental–you don't understand exactly what that is and so generally as human beings, you tend to privilege the transcendental over the physical. You tend to privilege what is out there in the subtle worlds over what you are experiencing in the physical world, when in fact, they're one great wholeness and you need to have honor and respect for both dimensions, for both sides.

I found in working with people that I needed to address this issue of not honoring and not appreciating the spiritual dimension of their own incarnation and their own being, their own personalities–the sense of being in conflict within themselves, of trying to get away from parts of themselves rather than seeing how can I deal with myself as a wholeness, recognizing that part of that wholeness extends out into the world and is part of my connectedness to the life around me. So Incarnational Spirituality deals with that whole process of discovering one's wholeness within the world and as a sacred being. Incarnation is not an exile from our true home, it's not being sent away to someplace we'd rather not be.

William: Is this then the foundation out of which evolved what you call alliance space?

David: Yes, in a way it is. It’s definitely the foundation for it. I mentioned John, and when John first appeared to me, he actually showed up as what I called a “tweedy professor.” That is, he looked like someone who was part of the faculty of the university–he had on this kind of traditional tweed jacket with leather patches on the elbows–it was my stereotype of a professor (and in fact, some of my professors at university did dress that way). So that was his initial presentation to me, except that he was a being of great energy and great love. And then he said, it's time to drop this and I just will appear as I actually am, which, as far as I could see, was this kind of sphere of light. I needed to come into alignment with his energy, and he with mine. This took about a month of meeting twice a day in the morning and in the afternoon. I would meditate and we would come together and our energy fields would begin to blend. Eventually, I realized we’d created a kind of third state. If you think about a Venn diagram, it's that area in the middle where two circles overlap. There was a place where his energy and mine could meet in harmony and in synchronization without one overwhelming the other.

I didn't think much about it; it was a process that I learned in working with him. But in working with Incarnational Spirituality, there came a time when my subtle colleagues said they’d like me to begin teaching how to be in contact with subtle partners. The way to do that, I felt, was through the creation of this overlapping synchronized field, which I called alliance space. The reason I called it alliance space was because for me, an alliance meant a partnership between two potentially unequal partners. Kind of like today, we have the the alliance between the United States and Ukraine, and yet, within the context of the alliance, both partners are equal. John had me experience coming into contact with beings whose energy was much greater than my own, but recognizing that the commonality we shared was one of mutual sacredness, it didn't matter what I was or what this being was; we were both part of the One, we were both part of sacredness and we could come together through that link and find a place where our energies would not be mutually disruptive to the other. And so I call that alliance space. And yes, I teach classes on that.

William: It would be very appropriate now if you could advise us on how do we take ourselves into alliance space. Can you give us some hints or take us into an exercise that does that?

David: I can. I can take you through the process. First I want to say that alliance space is unique for every individual. For each of us, our relationship with the subtle domain is going to be unique just like it is with any relationship or any friendship or working partnership that we have. The way I might partner with somebody would be different than how you would or somebody else would. It's important, I feel, to understand this individual aspect of it that each person will experience this in his or her own way. I’m not giving a recipe that you have to do this exactly this way, but here’s how I would go about it:

The first step is what I call to stand in my own sovereignty, and this is honoring myself as a unique physical embodied individual. If I think of the connection with the subtle worlds as a kind of bridge between this dimension and another dimension, then each side of that bridge has to be anchored and its foundation should be strong and clear and supportive. This honoring of myself, of my spirituality, of my sacredness is giving honor and expression to the foundation that I'm creating in this moment. It is fostered and assisted by being able to love oneself. It’s starts out as a sense of opening my heart to myself and honoring this embodiment, this incarnation, recognizing that taking incarnation is an act of courage and love and intent on the part of the soul shifting into this really strange [chuckles] and at times challenging dimension. I want to honor that my soul has taken that step.

I'm emphasizing this because in workshop after workshop, I have found that one of the most challenging parts to this whole process is for people to love themselves, to honor themselves in a non-narcissistic fashion. It’s a way of saying I am glad to be who I am. One reason that is important is because what I'm going to encounter in alliance space in encountering another being is the strength of their identity. If I'm not strong and clear in my own identity and my own boundaries, their energy could be overwhelming, it could lead to my losing a sense of myself in the presence of the other. So I want to anchor in my own identity.

The next thing is to extend that field of love out from myself to my immediate environment–the chair I'm sitting, the room around me–because all these things are alive, they all possess subtle life, they're all part of the One life, they all are a part of sacredness. I'm attuning to my surroundings as an ally, as a partner. This was something again that I learned from John. There were times when I would struggle with holding his energy–it was like he was bouncing off of me like a balloon. He said, “Anchor yourself into your environment, do that through love and that will enhance and expand your field.” It’s like making a wider chalice or a broader base on which the chalice can rest. So the second step is extending love and appreciation and honor and to one’s environment.

The third step is one of expanding your sense of presence out into the space around you–that is, to have a sense of your body as being bigger than your body. It’s a proprioceptive sense, it's a way of body mapping. It's the same process that we might use when we’re, say, driving a car and after we've driven it for a while, it's like the car becomes an extension of our body and we just instinctively know where the boundaries of that car are as we're moving through space. That's the same process of using our proprioceptive sense of body mapping except now we're mapping it out into this larger space and extending it into the subtle dimension. I say to my students hold the will and intent that you're expanding into the subtle dimension and just be still and be sensitive to what you're experiencing as you expand your edges out. What is the felt sense of that experience? What is that like?

As they become familiar and comfortable with that, the next step is I ask them to create a dedicated space through their imagination. It could be part of their field, it could be a bubble to one side, it could be like an oval in front of them–it can be whatever they're comfortable with. It’s a designated space that's built partly from their subtle energy and their will and intent and, eventually, the energy of whatever partner they're inviting into this alliance. I have them hold the sense of this space in their imaginations and in this kind of proprioceptive field.

And then I say you now want to fill this space with hospitality. You fill it with love, you fill it with a sense of hospitality, but you also fill it with intent. This is why this space is here, this is its purpose, this is the kind of alliance that I seek to create, this is the kind of ally that I'm asking for. In terms of the feel of it, I use the metaphor of preparing your home to receive visitors. Not just willy nilly visitors, but people you've invited, the kind of people you would like to come into your home. How would you prepare your home with this spirit of hospitality, but also, what is your intent in terms of who you invite?

That's as far as I can go with the Alliance Space because the other part of it, the other end of the bridge has to come out of the subtle realms. In my classes, people will do this and they may or may not initially feel any kind of contact. I don't encourage them to have a contact initially; I encourage them to focus on becoming comfortable and secure with the sense of this expanded space for this alliance space. And then at a certain point when they feel ready, then I say, who would you like to invite and for what purpose?

The overarching theme is that there’s a need in the world for us to create alliances that serve the world, that serve Gaia. There's so much that a subtle being who may wish to be helpful in our world can do, but there are limitations because it's not a physical being. It can't affect the world in the way that we can. Conversely, there are things that we might like to do that are enhanced and made stronger through cooperation and collaboration with a subtle being. In this sense, I see alliance space as a kind of force multiplier. It enhances my ability to act in the world, but it also enhances the ability of my subtle partners to contribute to the world as well. This isn’t exactly going through an exercise, but I thought I needed to explain the steps to make them clear.

William: That’s very profound and helpful, and I'm sure everybody will have followed it. What strikes me about it is the deep relational aspect of it that the energy worker, the healer, the person who has some psychic skills, is not egocentric in the way that they reach out or do their work. They're very, very carefully, as you described it, pausing, coming into the sovereignty of their own physicality and their constellation of energies, and then meeting in equal relationship the other beings that may be smaller or bigger.

David: Exactly. That's exactly right, William, you have put it so succinctly and clearly.

William: Well, I can only do that because you explained it so beautifully and it's such a beautiful strategy for people to do this kind of work. I get concerned with people coming into energy work and psychic work, who are kind of very human about it as opposed to relational. I think what you're saying is very, very deep.

David: One thing that I’ve learned is that we have what we call our special senses like sight and hearing for which there’s an organ dedicated to that sense–my eyes, my ears, my olfactory senses in the nose, and so on. But then we have all these senses that are full-body-based like proprioception or our sense of balance, in which the actual sense is not located in a specific organ, it's in the body as a whole. That has been my understanding of the deeper nature of psychic senses. If we're looking to replicate sight and sound as a psychic experience and say that I need to see something or I need to hear something in the way that I do physically, then I'm actually limiting the range of possibilities. I'm cutting out all this other full-body awareness and full subtle body awareness that's possible.

When I work with my companions in my classes, I ask them to be aware of the fullness of the sense of their encounter with a subtle being. A subtle being comes in the fullness of its presence and it interacts with us along a wide spectrum of sensation, of encounter, of information; not just narrowed into sight or hearing. I have people that say over and over, “I don’t see anything.” And yet when you question them about what they're experiencing, they're actually experiencing, if they stop to think about it, a lot of information coming to them in non-physical ways, in subtle ways. So I think that sometimes when we talk about psychic abilities, we narrow the range too much and and in the process, deny what we're actually capable of.

William: Yes. I think what you're saying, if I can interpret it, is that people need to be still and to trust the subtlety of their whole body impressions. There's a saying isn't there, that God talks through feelings, not through words. Listen, David, we're coming to the end of this beautiful conversation. I found your description of the exercise very moving and useful–very practical and useful. As we end this session. I would love it, we would all love it if you'd give us a blessing to round off and close this particular session.

David: Thank you, William, I appreciate that invitation. I often use, particularly if I’m starting inner work, what I call “four blessings,” but they work equally well for ending, so here they are:

Let us bless who we are. Bless the love and the will that brought us into being. It gave us this embodied identity. It is unique in the world and no one else can bring its gifts to the world. So let us bless who we are.

Let us bless those with whom we are in relationship. Let us bless those with whom we work. For together we create a field that none of us can create on our own–a collaborative field filled with promise and richness and power. So we bless those with whom we are engaged in work and in relationship and for the field that we create together.

And let us bless the place where we are. It holds us, it is part of our world, it is where we have our immediate impact, where our presence can make a difference and its presence can make a difference for us. And so we bless the place where we are.

And let us bless the work that we do. Let us bless the activity in which we are engaged. Let us bless our contribution singly and together to the wholeness of the world.

William: Blessed be, David!

David: Thank you, my friend.

William: Thank you David Spangler for your time and your participation in this wonderful conversation. It's much appreciated. Lots of love to you and gratitude.

David: And to you my friend, and to everyone watching.

William: Indeed.

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Sweet Seventeen

It’s amazing for me to think of it, but with this David’s Desk, I celebrate seventeen years of writing these essays every month. I had no idea when I started that it would last this long. The longevity of David’s Desk is largely due to you, my faithful reader, and the support you have given over the past sixteen years.

This experiment in writing a monthly essay began in 2006. That seems like forever ago.  George Bush was President, and the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan had been going for five years, destined, though no one knew it then, to last another fifteen years. This conflict in the Middle East became America’s longest war. 

In the spring of 2006, Twitter was launched. At the time, a friend of mine who was familiar with social media told me that it would become the biggest thing on the Internet, changing in many ways how we communicated with each other. He was right. But in his positive visions of what this new medium could offer, he never envisioned the proliferation of Twitter trolls, the spread of tweet-fueled conspiracy theories, nor government by tweet during Trump’s Presidency.

Sandwiched between 2005, when hurricane Katrina devastated both the city of New Orleans and the Bush Presidency, and 2007, when the first manifestations appeared of the subprime mortgage financial crisis that a year later would explode into the worse economic downturn since the Great Depression, 2006 was a relatively calm year. But it seemed to me that the time was appropriate to launch an experiment in writing what I hoped and intended would be essays of empowerment. 

As it says at the top, “David’s Desk is my opportunity to share thoughts and tools for the spiritual journey.” But behind these thoughts and tools has always been a conviction that each of us is a sacred individual. We are each an agent through which sacredness and blessing can emerge into our world. We need to remind each other of this because it’s easy to forget. So many voices in our world tell us just the opposite. I wanted David’s Desk to be such a reminder. I still do.

Our spiritual nature and the resources we have within ourselves are always there no matter what is happening in the world. For this reason, I have made a point of not trying to “follow the news” in these essays; I have had no desire to join the “commentariat.”  There are many excellent people, more knowledgeable than I, offering such commentary on the happenings of the day (and of course, many other people who know little or nothing but don’t let that stop them from stating with certainty that “this is the way it is).  I did not, and do not, feel that is my role. What I have wished to give witness to is our sacred nature and the spiritual power of our incarnations. This is where our power lies; this is where our ability to heal what is broken and to create what is empowering comes from. As I said in my very first David’s Desk, there are “no Muggles here.” We are all extraordinary, all magicians of the soul, capable of amazing feats of transformation through our innate power to love. We just need to be reminded of this fact.

As I began the eighteenth year of writing these “Desks,” I intend to keep on reminding you, and myself as well. We are, after all, partners in this enterprise of world transformation.

Thank you for letting me be your partner for the past seventeen years.

An Experiment

One of the advantages of David’s Desk being digital is that I can do things I couldn’t if it were printed. My Lorian colleague and friend, James Tousignant, and I do podcasts together. He thought it might be interesting to you, my Reader, if he and I were to have a discussion around the theme of that month’s essay and then add the audio at the end. That way, you could both read my thoughts for that month and also listen to me talk about them with James. So, without further ado, here is this month’s conversation. I hope you enjoy it and the added dimension it brings to David’s Desk

About Lorian's Seasonal Festivals

Editors note: This conversation was originally released in the Lorian Podcast. The transcript has been edited for clarity and readability.

James Tousignant: Welcome to the Lorian podcast. This is a special podcast, the Lorian Festival podcast with Lucinda Herring, Linda Engel Ara Swanney, and Freya Secrest.

Lucinda Herring is currently living on her family forest in Alabama, helping to create a conservation easement there. For Lucinda, celebrating with all of life and with Gaia at the seasonal gateways of the year is a living, cyclical way of remembering the deep beauty and joy of who we really are as human beings.

Linda Engel lives in Melbourne, Australia surrounded by her beautiful garden. She has been participating in Lorian programs now for nearly six years. Linda loves being part of this wonderful community.

Ara Swanney is a New Zealander living on the Kapiti Coast, north of Wellington. She describes feeling a sense of wholeness as together we participate in these seasonal Gaian festivals, acknowledging both hemispheres simultaneously and yet relevant to each of us wherever we are on this beautiful earth.

Freya Secrest lives in Douglas, Michigan on the shores of the Great Lake. Freya shares, "Festivals are important to me as they open a relationship with nature that strengthens partnership, wholeness, and the joy that comes with celebrating life."

Freya Secrest: This is Freya Secrest. Our Lorian team of Festival-makers are inspired each year to do something around the festivals, and this year to create a circle of wholeness. We describe this March Equinox festival as a festival of balance, widening, inviting and focusing. The equinox marks a moment of threshold, balance and pause, when the tilt of the planet in its orbit means that the sun's rays fall in a horizontal line along the earth's equator. Equinox is derived from aequi–equal and nox–night. At the time of the spring and fall equinoxes, day and night, light and dark are balanced and of approximately equal duration all over the planet. The March Equinox becomes a threshold doorway for Gaia’s breath expanding since the Winter Solstice in the Northern Hemisphere and contracting since the Summer Solstice in the Southern Hemisphere. It meets in the middle, so to speak, at the equator. We in the North stand in the doorway between winter and spring, inviting new growth and blossoming and widening light. Members of the Lorian Gaian Commons Community from the South stand in the doorway between summer and fall, inviting the withdrawal and narrowing of light and life into seed and a more focused intent. By celebrating the Spring and Fall Equinox together, we are once again creating a Gaian festival of wholeness. That's our description.

James: That's wonderful. Tell me more about the planning of the Equinox Festival. You have a change in the way that you're going to be doing it.

Lucinda Herring: I’m happy to share. Last year for the solstice, we did the gesture of the spiral. In the Northern Hemisphere, people walked meditatively into a spiral to the center. And in the Southern Hemisphere, you were at the center and you walked out of the spiral to express the expansion of the Gaian breath.

When the Equinox came last year, we realized that it's equal day and equal night, and Freya and Jeremy came up with the gesture of the lemniscate, the figure eight. There’s a point in the middle of the lemniscate which is the threshold where you're going from one season to another. On the Equinox, whether in the Northern or the Southern Hemisphere, you're standing with one foot in one season and one foot in the others. The Gaian breath has moved in a sense to the equator, the line in the middle of the planet–the place of equal night and equal day, equal light and equal darkness. The lemniscate capture that.

But then we had a conversation with David Spangler about festivals and a deeper inquiry into what is a Gaian festival, and David encouraged us to think that maybe we don't stay just with the seasons, but we work with what a Gaian festival might be. We decided to stay with the seasons because we'd only done one year and we wanted to deepen with that. But at Solstice, we decided together to make the gesture a circle of wholeness–not the spiral like we did on the prior Solstice. And now at this Equinox, not the lemniscate, but staying with this vision of a circle of wholeness and encouraging people to create their own circle of wholeness wherever they might be.

There's the challenge of what does one do in that circle, what is the dance, what is the movement of that, what is the gesture. We have been discussing what would be a gesture of balance and equilibrium, and we'll have to decide how to do it for the Equinox. The main focus will be the circle of wholeness, because in it, the ability to stand in a circle and to feel your own Sovereignty, your own radius, your own agency and Light, then to reach out to the land where you are–and this is land that spans the globe for each person who's participating–you stand in your own land and invite it to the dance, essentially. And then feel the wholeness of Gaia herself and the pause of the breath. It's not expansion or contraction when we're at the equinox; it’s this sacred pause and balance.

It's very powerful to experience. We experienced that last year, and I'm hoping that we will again–the fact that no matter where we are in the Northern or Southern Hemisphere, at the Equinox, we are in this line or place of equality, and that has its own deep gift and power. This is what we will be working on and we will be inviting into our circle the allies of our place. We’d also invited people at the Solstice time in December to think of an ally that they want to deepen their partnership with in the coming year. We're now one turn of the wheel into that and so we'll be encouraging people to remember that ally or partner that they wanted to partner with and deepen with and that invite them to the dance.

James: Thank you. How is it that you came together to start the festivals?

Freya: I think in the Gaian Commons Community, the idea of festival and sharing celebration–especially celebrations around the Earth–have been important to me. Here we were talking about Gaia and I thought perhaps it would be nice to celebrate Gaia, and a time-honored way of doing that was using the seasonal festivals. I know Lucinda as one who has been a festival leader and creator for many years in her background with as a celebrant, as a Waldorf teacher, as a woman of deep attunement to cycles in life. So I called her and said, Lucinda, would you like to help me set up festivals for the Commons? And I'll let you take it on, Lucinda.

Lucinda: I was very excited when Freya did reach out to me. It's how long ago now, Freya–two years? We've done one full year of Gaian festivals and we were very excited to know that Ara and Linda were our representatives, our women of wisdom in the Southern lands, the Southern Hemisphere. Freya and I worked together at the beginning and invited Ara and Linda in, but over the course of the year, it was very clear that Freya and I both really wanted Linda and Ara to be part of the foursome, to actually tune in together and create together what we wanted to do. So probably halfway through the year, we started meeting together as the four of us–is that right Ara and Linda?

Freya: It definitely brought in the fact that this is a Gaian celebration, not just our local celebration. They’ve been very important in helping widen it in that way. Linda or Ara, what drew you in, what interested you to share your celebration with the Northern Hemisphere?

Linda Engel: Well for me, firstly you invited me to join, and I loved the idea of bringing the energies of the South to the North, creating the wholeness. And I felt this very important that Ara and tend to be the sole representatives of the Southern Hemisphere–I mean, there are a few more dotted around. I just love bringing those energies and creating this beautiful circle of wholeness. Whenever we've done these ceremonies, I felt in the sacred pause this beautiful energy of Light right through the planet coming from the South up to the North and back, and it's really palpable for me. I just love that whole essence of creating this beautiful energy of global Gaian celebration.

Ara Swanney: For me, I was delighted because for many years, I've been involved in seasonal festivals here in New Zealand. We used to turn them upside down because everything was Northern Hemisphere-centric, but then we began to shift. Our Spring Festival, which is Easter in the Northern Hemisphere, is actually in August-September down here. We had to make those changes and adjustments all the time, whereas this involvement feels whole, it feels like we've been brought into the fold and included. For me, that's a great thing and I love the fact that Lorian is focusing on the whole of Gaia at one time. Sometimes I've celebrated these festivals in another part of the world. Being able to join in from my perspective has felt really special.

James: Thank you. What are some of the gifts and challenges that you face doing festivals online?

Lucinda: The gift, obviously, is that the four of us from all over the world can do these festivals and other people can join us from all over the world because we're on Zoom online. The challenge for me as a festival-maker who loves being together, embodied, being able to feel someone's hand that you hold next to you and to smell the fragrance of the season where you are and create beauty together and dance and sing–you can't really sing very well on Zoom–things like that have been a challenge. But it's also such an opportunity to feel the wholeness of everything.  One small example was at Solstice in December. It was dark and cold for us in the Northern Hemisphere, but on Zoom, this little bird–Ara, I’ve forgotten which bird it is–but there were these birds that were singing, and every one of us heard it on Zoom all around the world. We were in the Winter Solstice, but they were in the Summer Solstice with this bird song.

Freya: What was the bird, Ara?

Ara: It was the Tui.

Freya: That's been part of the magic for me of this. I've celebrated festivals quite a bit, and to include the Southern Hemisphere has been particularly notable for me in terms of the Winter Solstice, both this last year and the year before when Linda and Ara came on with their bounty of flowers and fruits they had put in their circle that they had created. There I was with my greens and white outside and the very stark trees and that widened my perception of what was going on for the planet. It's been a way of grounding and making very tangible the fact that we are one whole planet. Gaia so multi-life, multivalent, so diverse and holding so much all at once. It brought joy, both to see that there, but also to feel it. It gave me a deeper connection to the seeds underneath the ground in my winter territory that were just getting prepared, filling themselves up in that deep time of winter silence to be ready to burst forth in the spring. That's a magical part of it all for me.

Linda: I've never done any of these celebrations, really. I mean, I always honored the Equinox and Solstice times of the year, but I never actually did the celebrations until we started together. I remember that first solstice celebration. I was with my daughter and halfway up the coast of Australia and it was really hot that night. I’d made a spiral in the grass and I made this beautiful altar and I was sitting in the sun. Everyone in the North was sitting by their fires and it was snowing. But eventually I had to move because I was getting so hot and I was afraid the computer was going to explode from the heat! [chuckles]. It was such a beautiful flow of energy and connection here I was sitting in this heat, and then I was just looking at everybody else (besides Ara, of course) sitting huddled by their fires, almost like this dark room I’m sitting in now. It was really special.

Ara: Another thing that has come to me over this time of us presenting this together and celebrating is that for it has inspired me to research the things that our indigenous people, the Maori, have done for millennia in relation to these festivals, and it’s given me more depth of understanding. Everything they do resonates with Incarnational Spirituality, and it’s lovely to bring that flavor into it, the indigenous festivals which are absolutely connected to Gaia rather than just our Eurocentric way of doing things. That brings me closer as well.

Linda: One of the things that I just love about Lorian–I think it started with the kinship circle–is that honoring of the land that I'm standing on. In most speeches you make in Australia now, anywhere on TV, in government, etc. you honor the indigenous land that you're standing on. I just loved starting whatever I was going to say by honoring the traditional land, the custodians of this land. I think it's really something very special. It connects me more to the land that I'm standing on.

Lucinda: Yeah, I'd like to follow that because one challenge I've had in these years of trying to create the Gaian festivals is that I've moved around so much. The presence of the land has been foundational in how I open the festival gateway and how I know how to celebrate, and so it's been a challenge for me. I think the first one I was at my sister's house in Asheville in the mountains, and then by spring, I was in Maryland at White Oak farm, and then last Autumn Equinox I had moved to my land here in Alabama. I'm grateful that the Equinox that we're going to be doing, I'm still going to be here in Alabama because I've created a circle here.

But I've realized that there's been a gift in moving around like that as well because each of those lands has been so different. Even though I'm in the Northern Hemisphere and the seasons have been the same, the expression of those seasons is so diverse and so different depending on whether I was in Asheville in the mountains or in Maryland by the coast, and now in Alabama in the woods. We’ve made a point of really standing in our own Sovereignty and opening to the allies of the place where we are when we do these festivals, as you were saying, Linda and Ara. It's amazing the different allies who have come to the festivals in my year or so of doing this. That's a great celebration and joy to me to see how different the actual festival is in my being, depending on which land I'm standing on.

Freya: I also have been traveling during some of these festival times when they've come up. For me, it's not totally been the land that's changed. It's been the people that I've been with, though we started at the end of covid when we were in our Zoom boxes coming together. One time I was with my daughter and my son in-law. I think that was last Spring Festival. He got very excited and ran outside and gathered some spring greens and created wreaths for his daughter and his wife and myself for us to wear. We were down in the basement, we weren't outside in the land at all. We needed to be in the basement because the kids were taking naps. There was an enthusiasm and a sense of "what a welcome thing to celebrate and I can join in too!" It wasn’t just with Lorian people, my family members felt welcome to include themselves and join in the celebration. I know that's been your dream, Lucinda, to be able to have more children–your granddaughter was around that you could share some of it with her. And I know Linda, you have done that and Ara too, I think with your grandchildren.

Ara: Yeah. The very first time it was the Summer Solstice and I was in Australia and I had my granddaughters help me pick the flowers. We laid out this beautiful thing on the table with the flowers and stones and things that we'd found. That was really special to me to bring them in, and it’s been an opening for other conversations that we've had since as well.

Linda: I found also just collecting flowers, stones and different aspects of nature for the spiral or the lemniscate was sort of a meditational practice. I found that really special. Creating a garland of flowers–I’d never done that before. I love doing it. I spent hours doing it and put it in the fridge to make sure it stayed fresh for the next morning because it had been so hard for me to make. I just love to do that because I never did it before. For this Equinox, I'm going to be away, I’m going to be in Seattle. So that's going to be interesting, bringing in Southern energies like Ara last year when you were in France. I'll be in the North.

James: This is this is quite interesting. The individuals who would be listening to this podcast, some are in the Gaian Community and some are in the public. The phrase that is really striking me right now is "I can do this too.” What you were just describing weren't limitations; they were opportunities to dive in a little bit deeper with what you have in front of you, whether it's a different place or different people or different seasons. How can people join this festival, the celebration that's coming up on the Equinox?

Freya: We have it listed as one of the activities in our Lorian Commons. And so the most straightforward way would be to join the Commons and that's a subscription for a year that is $15 a month. However, if someone was really interested in joining in with just the festivals, you can write to me at freyas@lorian.org and express your interest in joining the festival and the link for that festival could be could be sent out and include you. For some folks, that’s all that they can come for and we welcome that.

Linda: We wanted more people from the Southern Hemisphere, and last time we invited Lindsey, who lives in Zimbabwe, so we had three from the Southern Hemisphere. It's lovely to get more people from the South.

Freya: We are really, in this work, looking to work with the pull, the gravity, the attraction that is there in connectedness. When we were doing the circle last year with a circle of wholeness, we asked everyone to envision themselves with the North heading clockwise and the South counterclockwise, so you had a sense of meeting each other, so there was a sense of coming together. Linda, I think you had some experiences around that, that were very alive for you.

Linda: That was that pillar of Light, it was very strong. It was a sense of oneness, of Light through the whole center of the planet. It was actually more like a spiral, really. That's what it feels like.

Freya: These festivals are a little bit of an exploration. There’s certainly the time-honored, traditional celebration of the seasons, but we're looking to say, how can we celebrate a planet that has in different seasons going on all the time? And not just North and South–for instance, Zimbabwe is closer to the equator with more of an even experience of things–and just stretching out our capacity to find representations of that in our sharing. In the Equinox, when you look at the symbol of equals, it's two lines, one on top of each other, relating to each other moving in more of a flattened circle. There’s still a circle, they're still connected, but they're more of a flattened elliptical. But there’s also a way in which they come together at that center point, which is Earth sovereignty, Earth’s place of standing in its wholeness, in its presence. That seems to be a little bit of what's coming out.

And then when we invite our subtle allies–or “neighbors" is another way to say that…My ally is a particular tree in my yard that I notice and appreciate for its being present in my life. Giving time and attention and noticing these neighbors, as I say, or allies, we strengthen our bonds of connectedness, the gravity that connects us with our world and our ability to be in partnership with and to be present to it and to let that be more part of our daily exchange with the world. In some ways for me these festivals are a way to carry out a relationship and find ways to weave it into daily life, not only festival days.

Ara: And to hold an awareness of the whole. For me on a Zoom, I know that I'm in a different part of the world because of my background–I can see there's light or there's sunshine. And the beings here are different from the ones I experience when I go to Australia or France. Knowing that and just being part of it and holding it in my consciousness really helps me

Freya: I don't know if the bird that’s singing is coming from Linda's dawn that we see outside her window or from ours a little bit later in the morning.

Linda: It’s mine.

Freya: They’ve often joined us in our festivals and circles. The birds have come to join in, which is so delightful.

Linda: I'm also liked how we used the four gates from the Sidhe card deck in last year’s Solstice celebration, and each of us called in the energies of that gate. I thought that was really beautiful. I thought that was very special.

Lucinda: Yeah, I think we decided to do that more consciously. I've experienced each time we've done these festivals a kind of delight and gratefulness from the Sidhe world and the Devic world and the natural world, a gratitude that we are doing these and creating containers of opportunity for us to be together. I particularly have felt that from the Sidhe and I remember that somewhere along the way Marielle said to David or he wrote about it, that we used to go to stone circles, long, long ago as human beings, and we celebrate the festivals with the Sidhe. That there would be these times in the Earth year, where humans and Sidhe, which are actually on some level cousins, would still meet and celebrate together and create beauty together. I’ve always experienced that there's this opportunity for us to create beauty together and to cultivate presence.

And so I really like that emerging part of our Gaian festival exploration and it feels exciting to me. It feels truly emergent that somehow we as humans, and with our allies in the natural world and with the Sidhe and with the animals who might come to the festivals, like the birds–a bird came and presented itself in the circle–that we are cultivating presence, we're cultivating it and nourishing it. We are expanding our own presence to know that we are Gaian that the Gaian presence is who we are and we are the Gaian presence. It feels very exciting to me. Being able to celebrate these festivals on a regular basis gives us opportunities to know that and nurture it and remember.

Ara: Yeah, I think that's a good word you used, Lucinda–nurturing it, you know, with the, with the cycle and returning and then growing it as well.

James: That’s a lovely place to stop for this for this podcast. Thank you all very, very much for showing up at different times in your day to come on. And again, the celebration for Lorian for the Equinox festival is noon Pacific, on March the 19th 2023 noon, west coast of North America time. So thank you all again. For for coming on.

Lucinda: Thank you, James, for having us.

Ara: Thank you James, and everyone.

Freya: What a wonderful opportunity to be able to talk about it in this way. This is just lovely.

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Incarnational Spirituality

Those of you who are familiar with my teaching and writing know that I work in collaboration with non-physical individuals living in the subtle and spiritual realms. I call them my “subtle colleagues.” In the late Nineties, just before the turn of the century, one of them said to me, “The challenge with humanity is not that you are too incarnated. It’s that you’re not incarnated enough.”

I knew that he didn’t mean that we needed to become more physical. But what exactly did he mean? It seemed important to me to find out. (It’s not unusual, by the way, for a subtle being to drop a comment like this into my consciousness and then leave it up to me to figure out what it means!).

To start out with, I had three clues to work with. The first was a memory. When I was seven, I had an out-of-body journey in which I re-experienced the process of my own incarnation, moving from the spiritual realms into embodiment. What was most clear about that experience was the joy that I felt at the opportunity to be an incarnate human being and the flow of love for the world that made it possible.

The second clue came when I was seventeen. It was during the summer between graduating from high school and entering college. I had a clear vision of my future (not the one I had been planning for!) in which I participated in the unfoldment of a spirituality grounded in love and appreciation for the incarnate state.

The third clue was something one of my first subtle colleagues, an individual I called “John,” said to me in 1965 when we first began working together. He said, “You don’t incarnate into a body the way a driver steps into an automobile.” (Which, by the way, was a common image of incarnation in those days, and perhaps still is.) “You incarnate into a system of relationships and connections with the world. The body is simply one element of that system.”

This latter idea was also my introduction to systems thinking, a way of viewing the integral and interconnected nature of the world. In working with the subtle realms, one quickly realizes just how interconnected and “entangled” everything is, however much it seems here in the physical dimension that we are all separated and apart from each other and the world around us. It also becomes apparent that love is the primary “entangling” force, just as it is the force that drew me, and countless other souls, into incarnation.

A holistic, ecological, systems view of life and the world is not new in human history but it is relatively new and unfamiliar to our Western society which has adopted a more atomistic perspective, breaking everything down into smaller and smaller separated parts. In life, however, the whole is always greater than the sum of its parts, so a reductive, atomistic approach will never give us an accurate picture, either of who we are or of the world around us.

With this perspective and the three clues to start with, I began to weave a deeper understanding of the nature and potential of incarnation. I called this exploration and the insights that came from it “Incarnational Spirituality.” Over the past quarter-century, this exploration has been developed, expanded, deepened, and enriched by the contributions of many colleagues within and outside of Lorian, including those in the subtle realms. It has been a truly collaborative endeavor.

If I were to give a one-sentence definition of Incarnational Spirituality (something I’m often asked to do), I would say that it is an exploration of the spiritual resources and potentials we have as incarnated individuals. It offers a toolkit to bring those resources into play in ways that can benefit our world. Incarnational Spirituality affirms that being in a physical body in a physical world is no impediment or obstacle to being a spiritual presence or to being a source of blessing but in fact is a source of strength and power.

Of course, a one-sentence (or even a one-paragraph) description doesn’t cover all that Incarnational Spirituality (or IS) can offer. It’s why Lorian offers different classes and books exploring it all!

One of the most important things it offers is empowerment. I have worked with spirit-seeking individuals, groups, and communities for sixty years and a bit more. A common idea I have encountered over and over again is that incarnation is a form of “exile” from our “true home.” It is a loss, a diminishment of who we really are. Wherever individuals acquire such an idea (and there are many possible sources), it is ultimately disempowering and limiting. It keeps us from recognizing how much more we are each capable of being and expressing. It deprives us and the world around us of gifts and blessings we otherwise could offer–gifts of love, compassion, fellowship, understanding, healing, and vision that are very much needed.

Based on many people’s experiences throughout human history, the world has both a physical and a non-physical or “subtle energy” side. I like to call the latter Earth’s second ecology. A core insight of Incarnational Spirituality is that we incarnate into both, for both are part of the “incarnational system” that “John” spoke of nearly sixty years ago. This means we are beings of subtle energy as well as of physical matter. The gifts we bring into incarnation, the potentials we can unfold, operate in this subtle domain as well as in the physical world. This is why, for example, we can be effective subtle activists as well as physical ones. The terrain in which we can operate to bring blessings into the world is thus vastly expanded. It is a vision of incarnational wholeness.

One doesn’t have to study Incarnational Spirituality to awaken to and express these gifts. There are other spiritual and psychological teachings and approaches appearing in our time that work toward the same needed and important goal–a reclamation of our individual and collective human wholeness. Each of us needs to discover the way of awakening that suits our individuality. One thing IS offers, perhaps uniquely, is a toolkit to express both the material and the subtle sides of our incarnational wholeness.

Our world is suffering from fragmentation and the conflicts that this promotes. This is why my subtle colleague said that we weren’t incarnated enough. We’re not mindful and deliberate enough with our interconnectedness.

To enable wholeness is the need of our age. We are called to do so in service to our world. How we hear and respond to that call is up to us. What is important is realizing that we can respond. We have what it takes in the wholeness of who we are to remake our world. Incarnation brings us to where we are needed and with the tools we need in order to do so. The rest is up to us.

AN EXPERIMENT

One of the advantages of David’s Desk being digital is that I can do things I couldn’t if it were printed. My Lorian colleague and friend, James Tousignant, and I do podcasts together. He thought it might be interesting to you, my Reader, if he and I were to have a discussion around the theme of that month’s essay and then add the audio at the end. That way, you could both read my thoughts for that month and also listen to me talk about them with James. So, without further ado, here is this month’s conversation. I hope you enjoy it and the added dimension it brings to David’s Desk